30 June, 2009
scriptwriting cancelled today.
Cam&lighting ends at 1pm,
we dragged till 1pm plus then left.
headed to mount e for dental.
now it's pink and purple!
((:
van said it's nicer.
hee hee.
i choose one mah!
headed down to hougang with van to visit Jumbo at her workplace.
kinda teased her friend - Jia Wen. hahahaha.
she's so shy. so funny.
headed to JP to meet pearlynn and WK.
amazingly, it aren't awkward at all!
hahaha.
walked home from JP.
called Cal.
talked for a while.
thanks darling!
it's really nice talking to you and all.
thanks for always being there for anything!
no wonder, my bestie. <3
kisskiss!
was on the phone while walking home.
((:
Cal, i miss random dinner/chill out at JP with you,
like last time.
just sit around and talk and share.
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:11 AM :)
29 June, 2009
i'm afraid of blows.
i'm afraid of hurts.
i'm afraid of suspension.
i'm afraid of lies.
i'm afraid of betrayal of trust.
i'm afraid of broken heart.
i'm afraid to receive the unexpected ...
i'm afraid...
no, i don't wanna cry.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:11 AM :)
schoool tmr!
oh no, later i mean!
and it's 3:22am,
and i'm not slpg!
howwwwww?
bio-clock,
please switch back.
else im so gonna die.
)))):
Cal, i miss you.
and i don't know why!
hahaha.
same goes for LLL.
somehow at this hour,
im missing you guys.
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:22 AM :)
28 June, 2009
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:54 PM :)
do you have to?
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:56 PM :)
people always said jealousy kills.
and now,
i think low self-esteem and lack of confidence kills too.
it's kinda tearing me apart,
right now at 7am.
and i've yet to be asleep.
school's starting tmr.
i'm so gonna die
| till death do us apart<3 | 7:03 AM :)
bubble-wrap my heart.
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:35 AM :)
what can i say of today? (saturday 27June).
it sucks.
received a msg from someone.
replied a 6 pages long msg.
awaiting for reply.
bombs.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:50 AM :)
25 June, 2009
okay.
like what i said,
i don't know what exactly gotten into me lately.
i realised i've been rather bimbo/bitchy.
many know normally my possessions will be black color..
anddddd.
first, i got a red camera,
then, i got pink manicure,
then now i've got a pink phone.
and at least 2 people said im bitchy this week.
and for idk why, i took photos using photobooth!
and for people who knows me, i don't take photos of myself.
hahahahahaha.
so what's wrong with me?
just for fun. hahahaha.
okay la, let me happy post a few pictures of myself la.
anyway, thanks dodo for everything that you said online.
so appreciated.
love you to bits!
hols is coming to an end.
noooooooooo.
& i need to fix my bio-clock alr.
because you love, that's why.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:28 AM :)
24 June, 2009
[/edited]
since i can't sleep, as usual..
[i think my bio clock is screwed]
i'll go about uploading photos.
i like this picture. cus we look like bestie of the besties! and yes, we are!
share everything under the sun/moon/stars!
a woman after God's heart!
love her!
she is someone who will go the extra miles for me without saying a single thing.
she is always, silently there, i know.
always backing me whenever i fall. (:
kisskiss!
MN. ((:
a girl that i'll never forget and stop loving!
know her since sec1, and she never fails to be there whenever i'm at my lowest.
a marvellous friend, an awesome sister, i love!
smooch!
oh MichLo, she's niceeeee. (:
very easy-going, very nice to talk and share. and very caring.
never forget the times when i shared with her and she understands it all!
she's a total blessing in my life man!
girl, i love you! (:
DK! someone who knows a lot about the outside world i guess.
and yeah, he's so good with the business stuffs and investment all this kinda thing!
he's funny, esp when he wanna care but he don't know how to put it into words.
hahaha. loves!
WeiQiang! the daddy of the family.
yeah, i totally agree he've got the gift of wisdom.
i can never never forget how he've been there, the things that he've done for me, the words that he said and all.
he's totally awesome! lovesssss!
and together, we're the unbreakable LLL
oh oh! i remember this photo is taken on the actual day of my 18th birthday, this year!
& i know this group of people is going to walk with me this lifetime. (:
no one can replace them in my heart!
Christ's love holds us together.
thank You, God.
n_n ((:
7 girls from 1C/2C.
i couldn't find individual photos of them.
so, i'm bloggin as a whole.
been really really long since i last met up with them and all.
i miss the first outing. the supperrrr long walk and ended up at west coast in the night.
it was so nice.
Girlies, i miss you girls.
the previous gathering i didn't make it. sorry.
let's have one soon, okay?
love 'em totally!
i got their pictures in my wallet! hahaha.
okay, printed by st dardar! (:
part of 4e4. not the whole clique here but yeah. (:
unhappiness and all,
but laughters and fun always fill the sky when all come together.
always feel very free whenever i'm with them.
and they do the stupidest, silliest thing that make you laugh like there's no tmr!
watch the videos on facebook and you'll know. hahaha.
i really enjoy and treasure the times with them.
lovesloves!
ancient photo. feel so ps for posting this. )):
but don't care laaaa!
share the same love for dance. (:
and also including baohui and Karen, i can't find their pictures! =/
cry, laugh, stress, angry everything together!
dancing together since sec 1, and now still dancing in our own school.
miss them, love 'em! (((:
the bear-mily ((:
srsly, i miss this group a lot.
been really really long since i last hanged out with them.
woah, their craps is never ending.
can like flood the whole place with rubbish and laughters. hahaha.
and the bond between them is totally amazing. (:
you see how they stand by each other, so heartwarming!
felt well taken care of when i'm with them. thanks dears! (((:
loves loves!
now it's my DD's turn! i know many sure saw their photos all over facebook!
hahahah. i've never taken that many pictures before man.
oh, i said this many times,
but i'm gonna say again.
these 4 dearests are the ones that make my poly life awesome, enjoyable! (((:
they proved me wrong for my perceptions of poly friends.
nice, fun, caring, hardworking, intelligent and many many more!
can't stop loving 'em!
Alexis and her family. not everyone is in this picture though.
they're a group of very nice people to talk, have fun, and partyyyyy!
had "heart-to-heart talk" with Alexis and Ruiting before.
and i must really thank them for being there. (:
i remember first time talking to papa RT is at chevrons. very nice of her to come down for HG/SK.
and first time talking to Alexis is at acid bar. it was really really nice. (:
and yeah, Val do text me on and off too! P will randomly talk to me online! hahaha.
as for the rest, i've fun talking, crapping, and oh oh hitting them! hahaha. opps.
lovesssss!
Jiayu and Ru cousin.
randomly in the middle of the night will ask me go woodlands. hahhaa.
alright, other than that, they're awesome people.
they helped me quite a bit. thanksthanks!
and they lend very good listening ears, give advices, at the same time joke and all!
i enjoyed that night coming up with questions and all of us answered personally.
hahaha.
and it's fun partying with them! ((:
thanks Jiayu for always helping me with the bag thingy!
and Ru cousin,
throughout these years, she has always been there for me, helping me with this and that,
minor or major. thanks cousin!
love both of them! (:
hahahahah. pearlynn. (((:
someone thought we've got happening. rubbish.
hahaha.
she's a great, awesome girl alright!
it's totally amazing and unexpected how we go about hanging out and talking sharing and all.
it's really nice. and we "fight!".
oh, and she just now complained that the photos we took only got her kissing me, but i never kiss her. hahhahaah. silly.
okay whatever.
anyway, i'm really glad to know her and all. (:
marvellous girl-friend. (:
best good friends, as what she said!!!
and thank you for that time, babe!
yes dear, i love you!
kisses!
okay, it's time for some blood-related people.
i grow up with them.
fights, quarrels everything is inevitable.
but it's amazing how each and everyone of us grow and mature throughout the years.
the way we communicate also changes.
yeah, people changes, they change, i change.
haha.
but regardless of the changes,
i love them still. (:
some more pictures yet to upload. )):
but i'm dying alr.
so i'll do it another time!
goodnight earthlings!
Evan left me with this before she went offline.
evangeline says: (3:18:33 AM)
" you can fix them you jus have to want it bad enough"
evangeline says: (3:19:22 AM)
"you can do anything if u re willing to risk falling flat on ur face"
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:46 AM :)
i just remember.
pearlynn wrote something for me while we're listening to the band.
she's totally sweeeet! ((:
[see what's written in her handphone! unexpected!]
*
there's a lot of photos i've yet to upload.
will do it soooon!
(((:
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:52 AM :)
now you know why i don't like to tell you my thoughts.
you always said i don't share, i don't say.
and when i do,
and i thought things are different for once,
it backfires, again.
are you even aware of that, M?
ohwell.
i miss Cal.
and definitely the whole LLL.
hmmmm.
met pearlynn at spinelli's.
dinner-ed at cine.
headed to clarke quay to chill, and slack.
nice hangout, i thought. (:
more to come!
it seemed like one of the nights i will walk home, tearing/crying.
but this time round,
He said "don't waste your tears",
and not a single tear actually drop,
even though i was feeling upset.
Daddy, i know You're there.
& when i see the tears that fall from your eyes after so long,
my heart sank.
i wanna feel carefree again.
i wanna feel like my spirit is all so free.
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:23 AM :)
22 June, 2009
bring me back to that moment again,
will you?
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:08 AM :)
oh,
and i wonder how's S.
got to know some news in regards to B,
and i thought it's pretty sudden.
texted S when i'm still at Genting,
and apparently,
it seemed like she don't know anything until i text her.
hmmmm.
))):
life's so unpredictable.
and scary at times.
i hope she's fine.
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:42 AM :)
alright,
i'm back from Genting,
like finally okay.
can't wait to come back.
haha.
kuku said i go quietly, come back quietly.
sorry dear.
(:
anyway,
did i enjoy the trip?
hmmmm.
i wouldn't say yes actually.
the only part where i enjoyed totally, and love it,
it's the jouney there and back.
esp there!
it's 3am where we're there, at the foot of the hill.
and guess what,
it's a starry starry starry night!
i go OMG, SO BEAUTIFUL!!!!
and at that moment,
i thought of Cal, another stars lover.
hahahahah.
but it's really lovely alright.
breath-taking?
hahaha. idk if it's the right word to use.
but ohwell.
and i thought the van is cosy, very nice to sleep,
and it's all own family.
(:
went outdoor theme park to play for the very first time,
even though i've been to Genting like 1275846473 times.
not bad la,
kinda no kick.
or maybe because i'm playing with a group of daring people?
hahaha.
alright,
i need to sleep soon.
meeting DD to celebrate Joce's birthday tmr. ^^
and i miss ....
many!
i'm goin' outta my mind.
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:35 AM :)
19 June, 2009
a bad day to start with.
sighs.
scoldings and all those rubbish.
and while Fel and the others are in NRA camp now,
i'm still at home, trying to figure a way out for the situation.
it sucks, y'all know.
i'm not in a good mood at all, nope.
you're like a gust of wind, come and go.
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:11 PM :)
just when i wanna go, and decided to go,
you tell me this.
awesome, bro.
she's our mummy, helllooooo.
i really don't wanna go for genting.
i want NRA's day.
fel, i'm sorry for this.
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:04 AM :)
what a loser am i.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:15 AM :)
have decided to go for camp, i guess?
i should be excited, no?
but i don't feel so.
ahh,
i hope things will be just fine.
okay okay,
just to make something clear.
sometimes certain sentences in my blog, be it in the middle or at the end of post,
is not referring to anything/anyone.
hahaha.
sometimes it's just lyrics, sometimes it's just random stuff!
have to go prepare for camp!
be back on saturday!
bye!
i really wanna kiss you but i can't.
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:17 AM :)
18 June, 2009
severe lack of slp mannnnn.
let me see,
ever since last thurs, i only have got 2-3 hours of sleep.
except for Sat-Sun, Tues-Wed.
oh dear.
i need more beauty sleep.
)):
NRA camp or Genting?
the way my heart skipped a beat when you hold my hand...
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:25 PM :)
17 June, 2009
dying of coughing.
oh dear.
no, i don't wanna be sick.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:54 AM :)
recent happenings,
as far as i can remember.
Jiayu and Weiru asked me to go over Ru's place in the middle of the night,
like 12am plus on sunday.
cabbed over after an hour or something.
haha.
watched 3 movies till 630am.
talked, crapped and all.
and went to lalaland.
okay, not really for me but the two girl-guys. hahahha!
woke up at 7am plus,
talked talked again,
and took a short nap again.
cabbed home with them,
Ru came over to my place.
met up with Jiayu again,
and we cabbed to town.
both of them movie-ed.
and i met pearlynn.
((((:
we talked a lot, shared and all.
and she's very mean to make me blush like 3 times or something!
first date, successful!
haha. that's what she said.
and yeah, she's very nice.
she went off to meet her friend,
met up with Ru and Jiayu.
ice cream-ed,
home sweet home.
enjoyed, totally!
*
met 4e4 peeps at sentosa.
hahaha. okay, i reached around 640pm.
cabbed there, and i almost lost my life.
why? ask the driver.
almost got into accident. goodness.
okay, whatever.
dinner-ed at vivo.
bumped into Huiyu, Pauline, Jaystine and one more girl idk her name.
the world so small right!
chua tiok man.
nothing much.
but i enjoyed the fun with the 4e4 peeps!
(((:
took a lot of photos, which made me tag them on facebook untill i wanna die,
literally.
say i'm efficient.
hahaha.
bus-ed home.
(((:
gonna see them again, soon.
i know.
*
oh, i missed the chance to meet n_n yesterday.
can we have another meet up again?
i miss the usuals.
))):
*
going school tmr.
for the whatever ppp.
feeling so lazy.
but meaning, i'm gonna meet DD tmr!
smiles!
hols seemed to be passing so fast.
please stop, Mr. Time.
i need to go get my stuff done.
covering, hiding.
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:17 AM :)
16 June, 2009
u know what,
i don't know how to say how much i love and appreciate Evan and Calista.
Evan,
always there encouraging me and all,
esp this time when im feeling all so discouraged about dance and all,
you won't know what she said to me and do for me.
baby, you know i'm really touched.
i dont know how to say,
but i do.
the efforts and all, the love, care and all.
thank you.
Cal,
the message you sent me today really means a lot.
something is stirring inside.
yeah, press on.
double confirmation.
thanks darling.
there's one thing i will never let go in my life.
| till death do us apart<3 | 12:20 AM :)
14 June, 2009
i've been having weird dreams lately.
not literally weird,
but things that i thought of.
and i wonder if
those dreams or sweet or what?
hahahahah.
opppps.
no no, i'm not gonna say!
&,
i wonder what's tonight's dream..
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:33 AM :)
happiness keeps you sweet,
trials keep you strong,
sorrow keeps you human,
failure keeps you humble and success keeps you glowing
but only faith and attitude keeps you going..
'm really thankful for LLL.
they never fail to encourage, give advices, lend listening ears and all.
they're awesome! totally!
that's why i say,
i'm certain this group of people is the one that gonna walk with me this life.
<3
beyond words.
Daddy, thank You for LLL!
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:57 AM :)
i know i'm like flooding my own blog again, but who cares.
just read and hear something that i thought is rather meaningful.
No Boundaries
Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want, but how long can you wait?
Every moment last forever.
When you feel you've lost your way.
What if my chances were already gone?
I started believing that I could be wrong.
But you give me one good reason.
To fight and never walk away.
So here I am, still holding on
With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing.
Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.
I fought to the limit, to stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets?
Don't know where the future's heading
But nothing's gonna bring me down
I've jumped every bridge and I've run every line
I risked being safe but I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am, still holding on
With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
You can go higher, you can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule 'cause there's nothing between you
And your dreams
With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
Yeah, there are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.
***
how big you make it is about how far you take it.
***
dream? passion?
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:32 AM :)
fear don't go along with passion,
neither does stress.
unless it's stressful cos you're striving.
- Cal, Wq.
i've been thinking a lot about this.
it's a good, great, high platform.
but ...
it's simply so hard to convey how i'm feeling and all.
i tried.
hmmmmm.
think, pray, wait.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:24 AM :)
i'm tired,
totally.
)))):
something has been hanging on my mind.
hmmmm.
oh, i like the henderson talk with Cal, MN, MichLo and Wq today.
((:
headed to PS for yami yoghurt,
den to henderson waves.
den to Cal's house downstair for supper.
heees.
but short of evan and DK.
love 'em all!
does that mean something?
misses.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:16 AM :)
12 June, 2009
it was a blast,
i suppose?
(((((:
totally love!
meeting DVFX peeps to hand up the last assignment before school term ends.
phew.
like finally.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:28 AM :)
11 June, 2009
no, i'm not gonna let it bother me anymore.
no more guessing,
no more thinking,
no more this,
no more that.
no,
no more.
no more.
gonna let my hair down,
and party the night away.
i'm gonna just not be bothered about everything,
and just free myself.
watch.
time is beyond your control.
once it passed, it never come back.
| till death do us apart<3 | 12:49 AM :)
CAL. says: (12:04:38 AM)
i js feel that u've been trying to suprressing emotions
Renee Isabelle says: (12:05:07 AM)
no wonder you're my bestie
yes, no wonder she's my bestie. (:
for every lil thing that's wrong with me,
she could sense it all.
and she would make the effort to talk to me,
and even at times,
coming all the way down to my place and see my cry.
thanks darling.
| till death do us apart<3 | 12:03 AM :)
10 June, 2009
a simple pleasant day.
firstly,
met fel in school to hand up NRA camp form,
helped Cal to buy food.
slacked for a while in atrium.
accompany jiayu to go polyclinic.
passed her BTT book, cos she's having her btt tmr!
kinda helped her a bit with BTT (i hope i'm of some help!),
and of course do my assignment.
at JP starbucks.
met Wq, Cal, ML and DK.
i enjoyed the night with him.
and Cal,
congrats for everything on your vietnam trip!
everything so fall in place uh!
she's like so hyper, so excited, so happy.
so glad to see that.
her joy is contagious. (((:
and yeah, just a simple dinner,
and i'm glad i joined.
initially didn't want to cos assignment yet to finish.
but i still did. (:
miss 'em. now.
i'll take a step back,
and step out.
whatever.
| till death do us apart<3 | 11:20 PM :)
as you wish.
going to school on a wed again!
just to hand up forms.
-.-
gtg!
| till death do us apart<3 | 12:50 PM :)
don't blow me hot and cold as and when you like.
if you wanna be cold, tell me and be cold all the way.
weird combi to go out, indeed.
but i enjoyed tonight, totally. (:
the sharing, the heart-to-heart talk.
yeah, thanks dears for tonight.
love it!
today is today.
some things are meant to kept unsaid.
to be continued ..
| till death do us apart<3 | 12:50 AM :)
09 June, 2009
dedicated to you alone.
(:
you know,
even though i don't say it often,
but i do really appreciate you a lot. (:
and of course,
i love you!
you always put up with my rubbish, my nonsenses.
even when i scold you over the most ridiculous stuffs, you put up with it.
when i vent my anger at you, you just take it.
yeah, at times you would get angry and scold me,
but that's when you really can't take it.
you pamper me like no one else do.
and u always let me fight my way through.
and when i want something, you don't want,
all i need to do is sajiao.
and u let me have my way.
ohdear, i sound so demanding. =/
you would bring me to places no one would.
i remember you bringing me to the horse ride,
and me cry like a baby over ... idk why.
hahahahaha!
you would tell me im pretty, im beautiful, im cute, im adorable.
you compliment me.
even though idk how true is that, but thanks for those!
haha
you will go to the far extra miles for me.
even if it's a hassle or anything,
you will.
thanks for coming, and going off in less than a while to get my dinner and come back,
knowing im very tired and hungry.
over the years,
you tried all ways to look out for me, care for me and love me.
you will get so worried over me.
you will cry over me, when tears is so hard to be found in you.
even though im slightly older than you,
but with you, i really feel like a baby.
i feel so pampered, so loved.
you would do things that prolly no one else would do for me.
thank you, love.
yeah, i supposed it's a random post.
but i realise i've never sincerely tell you how much i appreciate you before.
(:
and of course,
what i feel is beyond all these words.
you know sometimes words can't convey everything.
((:
thank you so much.
| till death do us apart<3 | 6:12 PM :)
let y'all hair down and party the night away!
sometimes i really wonder,
what does it mean by loving someone?
or is love a word too big to use, like what Cal always said?
somehow sometimes, i agree with her.
i don't know.
i've know of how 4 people are "suffering" due to relationship stuffs and all.
no, not 4 person in the same relations.
but things turn sour because of different thinking, different mentality.
but one sentence keep coming to me,
love is not and never possession, no?
okay,
i've actually typed out the stories of the 4 people.
but i thought it isn't nice to blog out people's stuffs even though not named.
so yeah.
i've got the urge to spend money. =/
i mean,
buying clothes and clothes!
dresses!
hahahahaha.
i'm watching channel5 now,
and it's all about those celebs,
so young, fabulous and filthy rich!
always so dressed up, living a life of luxury, getting so popular, having whatever they want.
no deny, sometimes i do wish i could have their lives.
never have to worry about $$ problem.
but again,
i'm always reminded of felicia's blog post.
amazing, sweet, and totally nice.
and very very true!
my dad blames himself for our family's situation. he said that if only my mom had married someone smarter and richer, then maybe we'd be living the good life now.
but then i told him that if my mom had married someone smarter and richer, then i may be poorer in love and foolish in life. and that i'm actually really rich now, richer than he thinks!
because what my dad lacks in financial status,
he makes up for it in love.
and that,
is priceless.
-Felicia
so yeah, i'm very thankful to God for the life i'm living, my family, and my dear friends that He put in my life.
priceless.(:
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:06 PM :)
it's 4am in the morning.
&,
i'm turning in soon, again.
i hope this time round i won't wake up crying in pain.
))):
and i need the aircon to be cooler!
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:03 AM :)
)):
i woke up, crying in pain.
was sleeping, and on off my tummy keep pain-ing.
till so unbearable.
till now, still.
it's killing me.
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:53 AM :)
08 June, 2009
one more day of school and it's hols!
can't wait.
having scriptwriting class now.
or rather end of lesson alr.
and just got to know we've gotta write a animation synopsis or something.
so gonna die.
))):
do, we can hug together and be stressed together and cry.
how depressing uh.
i thought today start off rather bad.
never really sleep, and seriously lack of of sleep.
and burned my finger this morning while ironing my clothes.
and it hurts so badly. ):
stomach feeling so weird like ever.
ah, im problematic.
yes i know.
i'm so so so so tired now.
=/
don't wait.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:20 PM :)
if that's for me,
then prolly i will need to shut up, no?
but i mean what i say.
and prolly this will be the last time,
else you might find it a irritant.
when i say i appreciate, i mean it.
when i say i don't wanna hurt, i mean it
when i say sorry, i mean it.
or maybe,
all this doesn't matter to you, uh?
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:22 AM :)
now i understand why Joce says
i'm mysterious when i'm bothered/thinking about something.
i think i get what she means.
Fel, Do and me saw rainbow today while waiting for bus home at Clarke Quay!
just ride beside the moon.
beautiful.
(:
long bus ride home from Clarke Quay.
as usual, always love it.
thoughts run through as the songs keep playing.
but sorry ladies, for leaving you guys to talk,
and just stand aside keeping quiet, in my own thoughts.
every step is heavy to walk,
with the burden in her heart,
she tries to hide it all.
overwhelming emotions,
never ending thoughts,
she controls her tears.
not until when she speaks,
"God, i wanna cry in Your embrace..."
it pretty much sucks a lot when you feel like crying yet you can't.
and when you're able to cry, is the time nobody could be there.
and then you realise,
who is there always.
who else, but Him.
i've got some stuffs to do,
yet i'm totally not in the mood to.
i don't feel like sleeping tonight.
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:18 AM :)
07 June, 2009
ice cream for breakfast!
watched Drag Me To Hell after ahgong's birthday celebration.
row first. -.-
but well, it helps nothing but freak me out even more.
and i realised i really do grab anything when i'm scare.
hahaha.
nothing pretty much.
headed over to song's place, stayed till 6am plus.
den walked home.
ben walked home with me,
and hence, the ice cream for breakfast!
gastric was giving problem and i thought i need to eat something.
slept for around 6 hours.
and now i'm up.
oh oh!
did i mention i know so much more about my cousin just in a day?
yeah, i suddenly feel i failed as a cousin, older sis somemore.
during the chat at the coffeeshop i know of some stuffs.
and when i was walking home with ben,
i know even more.
much worse that is heard at the coffeeshop.
ohdear.
idk what to feel/say.
hmmmm.
gonna head Clarke Quay soon for the play thingy with SEDP peeps and MrSteven!
which means,
i'm gonna see my two lovely ladies soooooon! :D
dresssssyyyy!
i'm not a thinking person,
i'm a feeling person.
i don't like to play mind games.
oh and i thought radical conference is rather cool.
esp the workshop on purity.
it got me pondering, thinking.
and i thought pastor (i forget the name! ang mo!) and sis elodie is really sweet.
how they decide to stay pure even in a r/s.
it's really awesome.
i realise the respect for each other is so important.
it helps or breaks one another.
and suddenly i remember there's this couple that i know of,
even ask the girl if he can hold her hand.
how cute is that?
respect, a very big word.
(:
hahaha. now i know what kinda person i wanna be with.
someone who will treat me like a princess.
hahahaha. LOL.
just like what sis elodie said, her fiance (the ang mo pastor) treats her like a princess everyday.
respecting her, complimenting her(from the bottom of his heart) and etc..
how sweeet is that!
awwwwwww.
alright, i better get going to prepare.
else i'll be late, like again.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:55 PM :)
06 June, 2009
yes doreen,
i miss tofu soup nowwwww.
everyday sure will whine about feeling hungry.
how depressing man.
haha.
and im hungry now!
woah,
i don't know why i'm so dead tired yesterday.
must be because of the time-of-the-month.
LOL!
i just watched something.
and again,
some emotions are stirring within.
sighs.
i don't know to play mind games.
fel, i miss going NRA with you.
gonna have term break soon,
can't wait!
i think it's time for me to make a covenant to myself.
and not compromising on it.
but ..
Dear God ..
| till death do us apart<3 | 12:53 PM :)
04 June, 2009
back from celebrating mummy's birthday,
with 2nd aunt, bro, jen and loraine. ((:
though i can't eat anything,
but i'm happy cos i know mummy is.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MUMMY!<3
i think i shouldn't be bothered.
Acting a play tmr during SEDP class.
in public.
goodness.
i don't know how is it going to be like,
hopefully not many people will be there at that time.
else ...
hmmmm.
& my tummy hurts.
cramp (?)
i cant differentiate.
ohoh!
CAL, CONGRATS IN REGARDS TO THE VIETNAM TRIP!
YOU MUST BE EXCITED EH!
I'M SO GONNA MISS YOU FOR TWO WEEKS. )))):
| till death do us apart<3 | 10:41 PM :)
has been chatting with alexis, hwa and sam online for the past hour or so,
in this CG room.
((((:
yeah, i know it's weird.
me and alexis = cannot link.
but it's nice talking to her!
hahahaha.
perhaps we'll be talking more from now on? LOL.
hwahwa is nice.
no wonder is my kuku.
offer to buy soup for me and all knowing i can't eat a single thing. (((:
both me and sam agree that we hasn't seen each other in ages!
im surprise to see this from her:
Sam says:
havnt seen you in ages
we hasn't chat for very long tooooo!
LOL. but! we chatted quite a bit today!
heh. ((((:
finished TVC proj.
awesome.
what to say?
joce and hannah are awesome. like really.
you should see them work.
i'm craving for food so much.
like really.
can't eat a single sh*t. ))):
soup, soup, soup.
porridge?
haha. okay, i should stop complaining.
i wanted this myself.
hahahhaa.
i'm looking forward to next week. (:
i think i know why.
hahahahahahah!
opppps!
R is hungry.
so depressing. )):
and i just remember FTT in two weeks.
i haven read up a single thing.
or rather, never even seen/touch the book yet.
=/
am i going to fail again?
hahahaahahahah!
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:29 PM :)
