Dance In His Love ;

01 May, 2009

just when i was about to go to sleep,

shit happens again.

i'm not some genius who knows everything.

what's wrong nowadays?

fancy blaming any single things on anyone they could find,

venting anger on anyone?

come on, i'm just a human.

i didn't learn that how the hell would i know?

it's not even my fault and how come it seemed like everything is blamed on me?

the tone, the attitude everything.

if i learnt about that before, i've got nothing to say.

no, i never.

can u imagine every night when you sleep,

you dreamt of scary things?

you dreamt of people coming to kill you,

you dreamt of the world is ending,

you dreamt of gross stuffs like people's head was chopped off and the brain, the blood is visible,

you dreamt of you trying to run but you've got no strength,

you dreamt of you gonna die/died.

you didn't even get to sleep peacefully.

and know what,

you can't even wake up in a proper manner.

you woke up in fright, in shocked.

not by the dreams, but by the realistic loud sounds.

imagine every morning you just literally jumped out of bed because someone opened your door so LOUDLY,

that it scares u and wakes you up.

it's like you hear a bomb outside your house that loud.

imagine someone closes/opens the toilet door so LOUDLY that again it scares you and wakes you up.

imagine halfway through sleeping, you hear loud noises made by ur neighbours,

and again, scares you and wakes you up.

it happens almost everyday, or at least every other day.

it feels rather terrible, very.

to be sleeping and getting so disturbed by the dreams,

and got woken up in fright.

it feels terrible,

i feel terrible.

i couldn't express how i feel towards everything nowadays.

i feel so stressed up,

every where i go.

i remember MN talked to me online a few days ago about school,

and yeah, stressed totally.

yes, workload in school not literally a lot right now,

but everyday my mind consciously, subconsciously is thinking about the work to be done.

i feel stressed when i'm in ..

dance, home (family), school, church (?).

i just wanna be myself.

i just wanna do the things i wanna do.

sometimes i just find myself so useless ..

Daddy,

embrace me, will You?

| till death do us apart<3 | 3:19 AM :)