Dance In His Love ;

30 April, 2009

i'm feeling so tired and distracted that i could hardly focus in class.

yeah, having MotionGraphics lesson now in the visual effects room.

now having a short break,

but i just don't feel like going anywhere.

sighs.

a lot of whys keep coming through my mind.

lalalalala.

last night was a torment.

thoughts hanging,

intense headache,

stomach/gastric paining.

and i remember how i cry out to You all alone,

in that room, during that wee hours.

telling You all about my fears, my worries, my burdens,

everything.

i don't know if You're there,

but i know deep right into my heart,

i know You're hearing me.

i called,

You answered.

Life's a bitch, sometimes.

| till death do us apart<3 | 10:39 AM :)

29 April, 2009

been some time since i last blogged.

BTT again,

next monday.

prepared?

as BIG no.

but of course,

i do wish to pass, of course.

school has been rather tiring.

yes, those graduates gonna say enjoy ur school life while you can.

yes, i'm enjoying,

but very draining too.

awww. this is school.

i miss the smile that lights up the room.

to you (the one who said this),

i hope you're doing good! (:

been long!

i wanna dance.

and i'm gonna dance til my very last breath.

| till death do us apart<3 | 2:31 AM :)

25 April, 2009

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i can feel upset,

i can be scared,

i can be insecure,

i can feel insecure as can be.

but i trust,

i trust totally,

i trust wholeheartedly.

there's something i wanna blog about a min ago,

but now i can't remember what is it. =/

oh well.

i won't be online as often for the next one week, i guess.

reason being,

my Macbook is sent for servicing.

a lot of problems. =/

yeah, blame it on this lousy owner,

who once feed the Macbook REAL birdnest.

retarded.

lol.

out to clarke quay and ate MFM with Cal and Evan

sidetrack, my bro's lappy(the one i'm using now) is so hard to use,

and it just went into sleep mood for the last 2 min, while i'm typing halfway. -.-

back to the point,

clarke quay is so packed with people.

the nightlife is simply so awesome, so nice, so noisy, so fun!

we gonna go there chill someday ok?

i really mean, CHILL & RELAX.

simple day spent with the two girls.

but still, i like it, enjoyed it.

and Cal,

you look pretty today. (:

highly irritable recently.

yeah, i guess pms. =/

i ~~guess~~ know i'm gonna have a bad sore throat and maybe cough soon.

woke up with a bad burning, pain throat.

hmmm.

and this Acer laptop is pissing me off TOTALLY.

it slept twice while im typing this post!

and i couldnt have any spacing within each para!

so irritating.

tired. yawns.

| till death do us apart<3 | 1:21 AM :)

22 April, 2009

i miss dancing so much.

i really do.

i'm excited for NRA audition!

no, not because i'm going for audition again,

but because Doreen, Cal and Mich are going for audition!

hohohoho.

how cool is that!

and i do really hope they will make it thru if they really go for the audition!

it gonna be so FUN.

hahaha.

but again, we've yet to know the dates for audition.

it will bring me far, i know.

provided i myself am working hard too.

felicia honey is so busy with dance everyday.

and i think rehearsing today.

awww.

and yes, it for tml! dance for fund!

jiayou okay!

i wish i could be on stage with you too. mMm.

loveyou, ney! (:

JP-ed with cal just now. went NTUC and popular.

sat around, and ~~bitched~~ talked chatted.

looking at facebook and getting excited over many different things!

i miss

MN, evan, MichLo, Cal,

in fact,

the whole LLL.

are you silently there? or are you just a seasonal friend?

| till death do us apart<3 | 8:55 PM :)

i feel so uncomfortable.

idk.

my heart seemed to be very heavy.

there's this burden.

there's this fear.

it seemed to be warning something ...

idk.

if she knows it beforehand,

does that means that mine is true too?

mmm.

| till death do us apart<3 | 3:28 PM :)

is there something wrong with me?

i couldn't explain.

Dear God,

| till death do us apart<3 | 4:31 AM :)

somehow i'm thinking a lot about dance today.

as much as the dream, the thought, the desire, the want

to be a good dancer,

probably like JJ, orange etc.

how can it ever happen on the current state now?

pulled out from 2 performances.

skipped practice due to whatever reasons.

etc.

sighs.

everyone start from scratch, R.

seeing red alert, joyce and the boys, basic motion and many many teams going into competitions are simply so cool.

was showing MN and Cal sbdc videos on facebook when they stayed over 2 nights ago.

yeah, cal asked me if i ever thought of joining a competition like them.

and of course i would love to!

i mean, which dancer or rather performer won't love to be on stage right?

i so look forward to a day when i'm good enough to go for competitions, and of course with Fel, that's a must, and hopefully in the same team! (:

fel, let's work hard and move up to a higher level ok?

you & me = same love for God, same love for dance! hahahaha

loveyou, ney!

i've a dream.

| till death do us apart<3 | 1:27 AM :)

20 April, 2009

best.

like what i/we expected.

too slack a timetable isn't that marvellous after all.

hahaha.

today first lesson - Camer&lighting effects.

already have assignment/proj whatever it is.

and right now,

i'm discussing online with joce and hannah.

boooo!

i'm so tired today.

totally knocked out.

| till death do us apart<3 | 11:42 PM :)

19 April, 2009

i don't wanna hope too much,

for fear of disappointment.

and now is 3.55am,

i just done packing my whole room.

yawns.

| till death do us apart<3 | 3:54 AM :)

feeling a bit low right now.

in the midst of packing my room.

there's so many things to pack.

and now it's alr 2.35am.

sianzxzxzxz.

is anyone kind and free enough to come over and help me now?

lol.

what a retard.

school's starting in two days' time.

ehh, no.

in one day time, tmr.

excited?

kinda.

| till death do us apart<3 | 2:34 AM :)

16 April, 2009

you spin my head right round, right round..

ahh, okay i know im lame.

but seriously,

my head are spinning.

ever since at forever21 my head is just in pain.

esp just now on the bus ride home.

and it's getting worse now and now..

and yeah,

back is paining again.

sighs.

problematic R.

| till death do us apart<3 | 1:58 AM :)

how would you feel,

if you're being put into comparison with someone?

and that someone clashed?

it just makes me feel all lousy.

lousy about myself,

about everything.

| till death do us apart<3 | 1:50 AM :)

maybe, maybe it's just all gone.

busted, boo!

| till death do us apart<3 | 1:28 AM :)

13 April, 2009

In chronological order...

yes, i change throughout the years.

the first picture was in secondary four, and the last picture is taken 2 days ago on Sat.

perhaps like what wanzi mentioned in an encouragement card before:

"the used-to-be-guai-kia look mummy, till now the pai-kia look mummy"

and now the party-wild look one? idk.

i don't deny i changed, and still changing.

be it appearance or the inner part of me,

for the better, for the worst, both.

many things changed definitely, and is still changing.

idk what's the purpose of this post,

but there's something within me that i wish to spell out,

but idk how to.

Mmm.

anyway,

i'm thankful for the people who stayed around me these years,

and of course,

the new people who came into my life.

loves!

it takes more than just words,

it takes more than just actions,

it takes a willing heart.

no matter what, i know i still love Him.

| till death do us apart<3 | 3:24 AM :)

11 April, 2009

how funny could it be that one could be scare of sleeping?

but yes, i do.

esp these few days.

nightmares upon nightmares.

and i'm really really fearful of it.

worst is, you know you're dreaming,

you know you're having a nightmare,

but you just cant wake up at all, even if you want.

and i dreamt of people killing me and such.

gosh. it's scary, you know.

it's no longer those kinda situations when you could just run to your mum's and dad's room and cry saying you've got a nightmare.

no, no more.

everything you gotta deal with it yourself.

sometimes even when things are hard for you,

you rather not say a single things to them,

and rather not even explain.

mMm.

tonned over at evan's place yesterday with Cal, MN, Wq and DK.

lazy to elaborate though.

but well, not bad i think.

a lot of thoughts are running through my mind ..

no words spoken, i just wanna embrace you and let you cry everything out.

and it definitely breaks my heart to see you so broken, darlin.

i love you, that's all i really know.

| till death do us apart<3 | 1:12 AM :)

09 April, 2009

it's a miracle i woke up so early.

and yesh, i'm so gonna die tonight.

cos i'll be so freaking tired!

and yeah yeah,

LLL ton over!

HOHOHO.

last min decision, but i know it's gonna be goooooood!

can't wait can't wait!

lunch-ed with chengyong yesterday.

suppose to have calista, diona, kok, lam blah blah, but dunno how come ended up the both of us.

hahahaha.

but still!

had a great talk, laughed, crapped.

(((((:

it's nice lah.

been long since i last see him alr.

hor, boyfriend?

LOL.

met calista darlin up to hollandv after dance.

hoho, first time two person go essential only.

dinner is - nuggets and onion rings.

hahahahaa.

but we have a good talk.

it's nice chilling uh!

and walked all the way home from batok.

oh oh cal u know what.

i almost couldn't sleep at night.

i kept thinking about the woman at the bridge.

kinda got me scare.

hahahahahahahaha.

kinda still feeling tired,

yet don't feel like sleeping.

hahaha.

i so feel like doing facial now.

hahahaha.

i feel like doing manicure, pedicure.

and many many things.

hahahhaha.

sorry, a bit high now. =/

stop the dramatics, LOL.

| till death do us apart<3 | 10:44 AM :)

08 April, 2009

ahh, shucks.

intense headache.

i couldn't sleep.

it's very pain.

| till death do us apart<3 | 2:31 AM :)

headache has been hauting me for days alr.

hmmmm.

since last friday.

but somehow it seemed like a norm alr.

lol.

even though it's pain,

it doesnt affect my daily lives much,

unless suddenly sharp pain (which happen on and off).

i srsly need to cut some fats already.

performance coming,

and i'm aiming in mid year to get my naval piercing back.

hohoho.

i miss it so much.

for every day that got NRA,

i realise i'll be so drop dead tired.

the moment i reached home, i would just feel like lying on bed and knock out.

lol.

after next week is school starts.

also means Dance for Fund performance.

based on this situation now,

i aren't ready at all.

yes, i'm scare.

the new beginning the old awakening

| till death do us apart<3 | 12:37 AM :)

a dream of hers

06 April, 2009

someone dreamt of me:

R was writing on a notebook,

and as she was writing,

E noticed she was taking a purple crayon.

Then, at the side of R's notebook were many other purple crayons,

some similar in shade, design and size.

and as R was writing things from her heart,

she kept changing from purple crayon to purple crayon.

E asked why she didn't wait until a purple crayon is used finished

then buy another one.

R shrugged and showed E what she wrote.

and when she woke up,

she asked God what does this dream means.

and God said:

purple crayons are the things i enjoyed doing, but before i finish completing one,

i start off with another one,

switching from one to another.

i don't really need so many things to do,

just one at a time.

although i am sincere in doing those things,

i don't need so many.

i just need one at a time, or it will spend much of my time, effort and money.

amazing.

amazing how God could spoke through someone through a dream for another person.

as much as she and i didn't know what's written in the notebook, but she says she knows it was something sincere.

how nice to start off my day with this.

and i bet this whole dream thingy and words from God is enough to get me pondering the whole day.

i wanna know clearly what is God driving at.

thanks E!

(((((:

what a simple parable for a complicated situation

| till death do us apart<3 | 1:16 PM :)

get it right.

| till death do us apart<3 | 2:25 AM :)

it marks a new start,

a new beginning.

| till death do us apart<3 | 2:02 AM :)

feeling so fat and tired now.

bet evan, cal and wq are feeling the same way too.

hahaha.

the founders of LLL.

LOL.

i had fun today, pure awesome fun, joy and laughter.

even though there isn't much words coming out from my mouth,

but you know darlin,

i'm walking this with you.

even at times i can't help much,

but if there's anything you wanna me to do,

let me know.

i know i know,

its hard, it's hard on you.

your words, expressions, tears everything tell it all.

God is with you, darlin.

LLL is with you too.

jiayou. (:

we love you, girl.

i'm starting to miss MN, michlo and DK.

hmmmm.

NRA tml.

A1 practice and dance for fund practice.

awesome, so long

lol.

anyway, jazz class is fun!

my back, my butt and my thighs have been aching.

haha.

if only.

if only one night i could lose up to 6-7Kg.

awesome.

haha.

okay, i'm dreaming.

something just make me so unhappy.

ohwell.

i srsly don't know what to blog.

just feel like typing.

hmmmmm.

happy ending?

| till death do us apart<3 | 12:33 AM :)

05 April, 2009

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wah best,

pastor just preached about anger today,

and now i'm kinda getting pissed over something.

rah rah rah.

control.

word twister, isn't it?

my blood boils when i saw that conver man.

okay, that's a bit extreme.

but i'm kinda disturbed/irritated whatever you named it, okay?

words that aren't the fact, it can actually be spoken.

what is this?

~~kid, wake up, grow up and shut up, will you?~~

on a lighter note.

hanged out with LLL, and jun hong, zhixian and joash at hollandv.

been long. (:

big group somemore.

i love night chilling to the max!

and darlin,

know this, you deserve to smile.

Woman of God, this is not gonna be easy,

but you know where your treasure is.

press on,

cos we're all here backing you up,

catching you when you fall.

every single one of us,

or rather,

the confirmed ones - LLL (me, wq, evan, MN, michlo, DK).

loveya, girl.

and yeah,

seriously,

i'm confused who is in LLL leh! hahaha.

got additional people right?

confirmed not?

hahahaha.

| till death do us apart<3 | 1:56 AM :)

04 April, 2009

chose IS modules today.

hahahaha. i feel so dumb for even being nervous about it.

okay, i'm retarded. -.-

and so!

conclusion,

doreen, me and fel is taking the same IS module - self expression : drama and poetry for the first term.

and me and fel is taking the same IS - french in the second term.

conclusion : we gonna see each other from mon to fri everyday! hahahahaha.

joce and hannah is choosing the same - net generation i think.

so they gonna see each other everyday too!

LOL.

i hope we won't get sick of seeing each other every single day!

hahahaha.

i definitely won't. what about you? =/

hahaha.

and dodo! please take care ok! think of me and your fever will subside!

somehow,

again, i cant wait for school to start!

but which mean, dance for fund is near..

anddd.. hmmm...

ney! help me!

going jazz class tomorrow.

i heard it's .... torturing or something?

hahahah. idk.

we shall see.

kinda excited about it though.

next week onwards gotta really be serious about dance, and the performance.

i definitely won't wanna screw up during the actual day.

has been having headache for the whole day.

idk why.

i love that place!

goodness.

it's just awesome being up there! :D

really.

the atmosphere, ambience, the breeze, every every thing!

oh oh!

this week horrrr.

3 ang moh guys smiled to me!

hee hee hee heee.

i know this post very random

but whatever lahhh.

and it starts all over again,

i'm starting to feel fat.

the KGs i lost a week ago i think gained back alr.

sadded.

can't remember anymore random stuffs.

be back when i thought of more.

| till death do us apart<3 | 1:25 AM :)

03 April, 2009

tell me to be suspicious or not.

i'm so afraid that i just call out the identity.

i don't dare to face the fact,

and i don't wanna hear.

no, i don't want.

| till death do us apart<3 | 1:32 PM :)

come to think of it,

i really miss a whole full LLL hanging out.

can we have one soon?

before school really starts.

just go out chill, talk, laugh, crap, anything.

i miss the good old times we had together.

really.

tml meeting cal and gang in the afternoon.

kinda excited about it though it gonna be simple.

but it really feels long since i last hanged out with them.

i miss cal, MN, michlo, wq, DK, evan ..

cal, you're sucha encouragement.

really.

i'm sorry for neglecting you for the past 2-3 weeks when i'm so caught up with my own things.

but you do know that i love you, don't you?

| till death do us apart<3 | 1:33 AM :)

02 April, 2009

sian.

why can't IS enrollment be in the morning?

sighs

| till death do us apart<3 | 10:58 PM :)

beware!

a very long post. beware.

right now, i'm in my room all alone. with all the lights off, except for a lil purple light on my desk a few distance away and my mac's screen light. amazing, i'm not afraid. okay, retarded, cos there's still some form of light in the room. if totally dark, hmmm, i'll hide under my blanket. lol. oh, and i'm sitting on my mattress, not even on my most-comfy bed. hugging my two beloved precious baby pillows. i seriously don't know why am i typing all this, but i just feel like doing it. reminded of writcom the first lesson mr patrick wong asked us to just write anything that comes to our mind. hahahha. lame, okay i know. these three weeks or so have been rather.. bad, i suppose. but again, i'm still getting on fine. definitely some issues are still hanging on, but on well. and, hasn't been hanging out a lot with the clique either. unlike last time everyday. but one thing i'm glad is, nevertheless, we're still as close. and it feels so happy meeting up with them. just like yesterday meeting MN and cal. even though it's for a short 2-3 hours, but it's good. yeah, absence makes the heart grows fonder. man, i love LLL to bits. i so miss the times of night chilling. i miss the flooding essential brew with thunderous laugher. i miss going LT starbucks to chill till late night. i miss the night at west coast. i miss going around in the car. i miss and i love. definitely miss 4e4 peeps too. diona, chengyong, jonathan lalalala. and n_n. been long since i hear from them, literally everyone - szeting dar, grace, wanzi, laytheng, serene and diona again! :D i don't wanna grow up, if everyone is gonna be so busy with their own schedule. i miss secondary school so much. the times in class. listening to MrChia teaching, dozing off in class, sms-ing in class (inter-class, or within class or outside sch!), playing with diona in class and tearing of my chemistry notes (!!!), teasing keanyong, deciding where to go after school, stoning in class, smuggling food into class during recess, trying to be good student each time mdm oen walked past, shouting across the class, all the names-calling and teasing, all the lame jokes within the class.. many many more. i miss the dancers - yiqi, gektheng, baohui, karen etc. the dance time together. awesome. the times we cried, we stressed, we fight, we did everything together. and of course the times we dance together. how sweet is it. time flies. very fast. many things change, people change. awwww. unknowingly i went into the reminisce - mode. hahahaha. whatever. okay, back to now. seriously, i wanna thank a few people big time during these period of time.

yaxin, you know you've been so awesome? i mean, i'm serious. i enjoy talking to you a lot. like i share, you share everything. on phone, sms, at clarke quay everything. and i won't forget we laughing over some things. hmmm. shhh. i know i could trust you with everything. words that you said keep hanging in my head, really. and i still owe you money for the fish market meal that time! anyway, if you realise for 2 times or more, when i'm strike down kinda hard, you're there for me. once, you're still in china, and now you're back in singapore, you're still here. thanks dear.(: loves!

weiru, yes, you've become an ah pek alr. haha. but again, i simply love the way you deal with things. serious but at the same time funny. yeah, gone to china for two weeks. and when you come back, we met up. things that you said are really ... amazing. you're old lah! haha. an old man trapped in a young body. lol. but seriously, thanks a lot. you really make me laughed with what you say to your friends and in the movie theatre and whatever whatever man. hahaha. you make me realise a lot of things too! and yeah, smile because of you lah! LOL. thanks for always being so available. what a great, awesome cousin i've got here! <3

calista, seriously even though we hasn't been meeting up really a lot, and you yourself managing your own struggles, unhappiness and problems, you still care so much for me. thanks so much for being understanding. that i could just be so frank about how i feel, what i'm thinking and things like that. just everything without even gotta hide anything. and you're constantly reminding me that there's people who care for me. those messages and calls everything. same goes for MN, michlo and wq. i know i never need to fear of being judge, and i can be frank with you guys. thanks so much. i didnt expect myself to tell you guys all that either, but i did, everything. i'm amazed by how i could just pour out everything to you guys, really. LLL - a group consisting of different individual but all love one another. yeah, the word - love. (:

jasmine, yeah i know been really really some time since we contact. haha. but nevertheless, i remember how you tried to talk to me regarding all those things. and even get pissed with me for whatever that i'm doing. i see that you care, really. (: and of course, i won't forget certain things that you said. haha. i don't know if you remember, but i do. anyway, still, thanks a lot! (: loves!

diona, haha. think of you i wanna laugh. how silly of you. i remember you sending me message asking how am i every single day. literally every day. man, you're so thoughtful. really. and the night when we talked on phone, i know you're speechless. i never expect you to say anything either. cos i know you won't know what to say. but what shocked me is, you said you were tearing on the other side of the phone. how silly of you. but i'm seriously touched. like really. and the daily message is really .. sweet of you. i thought certain days you would forget, but you send every day. haha. and yeah, i know recently i've been replying message a bit slow, old alr. hahah. no lah, depending on the time, sometimes still slpg. hahaha! you're loved, donut!

chengyong, hahahaha. over the phone too. a pity my dad sleep a bit late, else i think we could possibly meet up for supper (?) or breakfast (?). hahahahaha. like i say, i guess you're probably the one and only guy that i ever share so much with. that i know i could really rely on. you always text and tell me, if ever i need you, you'll be there, and yeah, i know you will. you proved to me. hahaha. thanks for the never failing care, concern MrChua. (: loves!

hwahwa, i know i didn't tell you much when all the things are happening. but i definitely know you care. as much as you're always busy or lazy or whatever lahhh. haha. thanks for informing me that ru is online while she's at china and things like that. and when i told you things, i see your response, i know you care. really. and the naggings to ask me go see doctor. hahaha. kuku, you know you're always my kuku and you know i definitely love you! (:

xueli, this holiday we chatted quite a bit uh? haha. or rather these 3 weeks or so. how funny. you thought i wasn't okay, i thought you wasn't ok. the very first phone chat, okay, not really a chat, i thought you're sad so i wanna call to console you, but ended up, we're laughing over the phone. it has been great chatting, talking to you over sms, msn whatever. and yeah, you're nice lah! always checking up on my back ever since the first injury and stuffs like that. oh oh, and i'm sorry to always whatever you. hahaha. but i can't help it! haha. opps! :D loves!

DVFX dearests - felicia, doreen, jocelyn & hannah. yeah, we didn't meet up often during this holidays. but the time at euminl's birthday i thought it was rather good? i mean, 5 of us have the chance to really sit down and talk. and you know what, you guys really touched me a lot. all the words, the holding of my hands, the pat on my shoulder, the hugs, the prayers, the look that tells me "renee, i care" and things like that. i mean, come on, you guys are fantastic okay. i know i said this million times alr. but i must emphasize you guys are the one that make my stay at NP enjoyable. really. thank God that we gonna stick together throughout the whole three years! cheers! <3

yiqi. i like the stayover at my place. it's when you really share a lot. hahaha. yeah, even though you're always busy with school and such, but i'm really glad when in times when you're down, you text me. it encouraged me, you know? and yeah, the drinking of drinks, eating of chips in my room, and the talking is definitely fun. even though i didn't say much, but nevertheless, you showed your care, concern, love everything. be it sms, talking, or writing on my facebook wall! hahaha and you know what, you gotta know it by heart that i'm always here for you, like always and always. (: you're my laogong remember! hahaha. and i miss dancing with you! haha. gonna crash JJ again to dance. or go NP! LOL. you're loved, dear!

szeting, i know we hasn't been contacting either. no message, no online, nothing. but just to let you know, the lil tag from you asking me to take care actually means a lot. yeah, i know you won't know what to say if i were to cry in front of you telling you everything. i never blame you, or get upset with you or anything. haha. i know you care, just that you don't show it directly to me! lol. but still, i know. be it from myself, or other people telling me. thanks dardar, i still love you as much! ((:

jumbo. hahaha. i know you not gonna see this, but still i'm going to say. yeah, i only know you for a short period of time, and it's really short. the first time we talk is on 19march? on msn some more. don't ask me why i remember the date, it is because this date is significant and you actually talked to me on that day, that's why i remember! haha. anyway, i really appreciate you for coming all the way down to jurong when you're working at hougang and going back to sengkang already. oh man, and at that late hour. and yeah, talked at chevron's pool area. how funny is it. and ended up, gotta climb the gate out cos it's locked. and got into the cab just anyhow and mac-ed with hwa at superbowl. lol. seriously, thanks for lending your listening ears, and even for the words you said. it does help, really. and of course, thanks for your concern over my back too! like what ru said, you're really a great friend. i agree, totally! :D and yea, suddenly you become _ _ _ _ _ _, all thanks to Ru also. hahaha. thanks dear! loves!

lastly for evan. i know things hasn't been going very well for you too. happenings after happenings. you go through emotions of happy, sad, angry, sian, confused, tired, fear, everything. but i know, things are gonna be fine at the very end of the day. when there's low, there's up. stay strong ok? you know i'll always be with you to walk it through. and LLL is with you too. just like what cal always said to me, now i'm saying to you, you're never alone. and yeah, i see the rainbows coming soon, and that's why i know the rain is stopping soon. smile, it's gonna be beautiful. loveyou, baby! (:

did i miss out anyone?

please do tell me okay.

i've got stm, and now at this wee hour of 3.23am,

my brain isn't functioning very well.

sorry if i miss you out,

but please bomb me a message saying i miss you out.

not saying you aren't impt/sig,

but understand that i've got small brain,

in another word,

i'm forgetful and dumb.

hahahaha.

anyway, thanks people.

a million billion zillion whatever-llion times.

somehow,

i find myself missing partying.

i don't wanna hide,

i don't wanna be hypocrite.

i just wanna be true.

off to sleep,

gotta wake up in 3 hours time!

| till death do us apart<3 | 3:29 AM :)

you made my heart skip a beat.

i was so worried,

that tears welled up.

tough season uh.

| till death do us apart<3 | 1:27 AM :)

why?

why does adults like to hide things from their very own children?

and at the very last point of time,

just throw a bomb and expect them to just deal with it?

oh come on, please.

| till death do us apart<3 | 12:34 AM :)

01 April, 2009

this season seems to be rather tough for everyone.

or rather,

mostly.

why?

| till death do us apart<3 | 11:53 PM :)

the days ahead are so bleak.

certain things you know are coming your way,

certain things you're totally clueless.

just like today.

when you thought everything was fine,

then you realised it has never been okay.

no, nothing gonna steal my smile away.

| till death do us apart<3 | 11:12 PM :)

what must it happen at this point of time?

when i thought everything was fine again.

and now?

so yeah,

i'm right.

it's breaking up silently.

what can be scarier than this?

| till death do us apart<3 | 4:32 PM :)

who doesn't like to be pampered, loved, praised etc?

LOL.

these few weeks really open up my eyes.

i see who really cares.

thanks dears!

and ouch,

AD is attached!

fel, i'm right!

hahahahahaahahahahahaahah!

let's heartbreak together.

hahahhahaha!

| till death do us apart<3 | 4:01 AM :)

I MISS HIM DEARLY.

BABY J <3

so adorable.

i bet he's enjoying himself at his new place!

| till death do us apart<3 | 1:35 AM :)