i miss late night hanging out so much.
but i can't,
esp these few days,
until things got better.
sighs.
it feels so weird at home,
so lifeless.
this week has been abnormal.
normally i would just go out as and when i like, anytime of the day,
come home late and things like that.
but these few days,
even if going out, i'm also feeling scare.
scare of how things will be at home,
scare of how my mummy will feel/think.
scare of this, scare of that.
always got to base on feeling, atmosphere den can say certain things, den can go out.
cannot come home too late,
else she'll say things like what she said to me this morning,
and i feel when she said that she's thinking she's not needed in this family.
but that's not the case.
everything become so sensitive within this family,
every little thing,
every little action,
every single word.
sighs.
yes, i think i need a doctor for my back soon.
it's getting worse day by day.
God, be my healer.
it feels so weird.
are you okay?
am i okay?