31 March, 2009
ouch, it hurts.
:(
and yeah,
i hurt my back once again.
adding on to the previous one.
hahahahahaha.
hmmmmmmmmmmmm.
i'm starting to panic about Dance For Fund already.
know why?
cause i haven familiarize myself with the steps yet.
and yeah.
hmmmm.
3 more weeks.
hmmm.
has been meeting Ru cousin up for the past two days.
(((((:
yes, just enjoy hanging out with her.
i miss mount faber/henderson wave.
find one day before school reopens,
let's go there chill the whole night.
ever since i woke up (which is pretty late. =/),
my head has been feeling rather heavy/pain/giddy.
how come?
no, i never drink last night.
hahahahah.
it doesn't matter what the time will tell
cause love will make it worth it
evan, send me the song, over the mountains!
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:00 PM :)
30 March, 2009
i just got to realise,
it's less than a month to school reopens.
mmmmm.
i totally lost track of time.
am i happy,
or am i sad?
i'm happy, cos i'll be spending everything with the DVFX dearests. (:
i'm sad cos prolly every morning gotta wake up early.
i'm sad cos no more late hanging outs with cal and the gang.
i'm happy cos i'll be using my time wisely in school (hopefully)
i'm happy cos ...
i'm sad cos ...
lalalas.
whatever lahhhh.
pros and cons lahhhhh.
calista darling, you know you're loved! hahahahahaha.
random eh?
hohohoho.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:26 AM :)
everything is just so unpredictable.
lalalas.
whatever.
had a good time catching up with WR. (:
feel honoured lahhhhh,
when so many people are waiting for her,
i'm the one with her for half of the day.
hahahaha.
and i thought the home ride with Cal and Joash is nice too.
(((:
NRA tml
it's time to be real committed, R.
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:32 AM :)
29 March, 2009
part and parcel of What hurts the most - Monica.
feels like nothin' changed.
since we've been together.
i must admit that i go crazy bout' you
and baby, what hurts the most is letting go
i just want you to know that i love you so
i thought for sure you'd always wait me
i'll tell you what hurts the most is i should have took the chance
silly of me i thought i'd always have your heart
i had the chance to have all the love oh, how i'm missing now
i hate that there is someone new
comin' in and takin' my place
doin' the things that we used to do
and makin' love to you
and oh, what am i supposed to do
it's killin me 'cause i want you
and you should know my love was true
i know that i'm the one to blame for losing you
man, sometimes song lyrics are the thing.
lol.
you taught me this, love.
(:
you're blowing my mind.
meeting WR in an hour time!
been long ...
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:58 PM :)
everyone sharing the same sentiments.
but why aren't you?
do you know..
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:31 PM :)
this is not a drama.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:28 PM :)
tell me,
tell me this time round is it true or fake?
tell me this time round is it reliable?
i wish i'm right,
really.
but am i?
you're unreachable.
i miss you.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:16 PM :)
has never been so determined about something before.
yes,
it shocked you.
it shocked me too.
but but but,
so?
there's a lot of voices i'm hearing.
and there's one thing,
i just don't believe it's true.
no, R.
no more of smoking, drinking whatever.
self-control, R.
sonowwhowww.
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:19 PM :)
i woke up with my mind filled with thoughts,
heart overwhelmed with explainable feelings.
hah.
can you tell me
how can my mind pull up incidents
recall dates and times that never happened
i missed the times that we almost shared.
i miss the love that was almost there
i miss the times that we use to kiss
at least in my dreams
just let me take my time and reminisce
i miss the times that we never had
what happened to us we were almost there
whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
never almost had you
i cannot believe i let you go
or what i should say i should've grabbed you up and never let you go
i should've went out with you
i should've made you my boo boy
yes that's one time i should've broke the rules
should've found a way to escape
should've turned a almost into
and you seem to be the perfect one for me
you're all that i ever wanted
and you're my everything yes it's true
boy it's hard to be close to you
my love
i know it may sound crazy
but i'm in love with you
awww, almost - Tamia
so sweet.
hahahaha.
can i say a no?
is there a miracle?
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:07 PM :)
i poured out all those within.
thanks Cal and MichLo for listening after service.
yes, i know tears couldn't stop falling.
but you know what,
i feel good telling you guys everything,
at least i never hide anything,
be it good or bad.
thanks for not judging and such.
thanks for the shoulder, Cal.
thanks for everything, really.
went TCC with part of LLL (Weiqiang, Cal, MN and JH).
yeahhh.
henderson waves after that.
i thought it's was nice.
at around 12am plus at that kinda place.
again,
never hide anything,
i said everything.
i just wanna be true.
been really really really long since i really talked to Wq.
like 2 years or something.
but really, thanks Wq.
the talk was really nice,
really.
thanks for everything too.
and yes, MN,
i do miss you,
a lot.
now i've said out everything,
nothing to hide.
i feel much better.
just wanna be true,
at least the closest, those ought-to-know people alr knew.
i know they won't judge.
thanks dears.
it's during tough times,
i know, i see who really are there.
i know, i see who makes the effort.
you guys know who you are.
thanks! (:
i don't understand.
i seriously don't.
i don't.
no, i don't.
when everything of mine seemed to be just-another-thing to you ..
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:43 AM :)
28 March, 2009
know what,
i miss my DVFX dearests a lot a lot.
yes namely,
felicia, doreen, jocelyn and hannah!
i can't wait for sch to start, ya'll know?
even though i know i'll dread and complain about the waking up early,
getting tired in class blah blah blah,
but each day pass by happily with you guys around.
really.
namely 4 of you make my school days in NP enjoyable. (:
loveyou girls.
and i hasn't been really talking to cal darling lately.
i mean, really talking.
i'm sorry, darling.
thanks for the words this afternoon.
i'm seeing you tml. (:
somehow, can't wait!
i miss 4e4 peeps a lot too.
was talking to diona about it yesterday or something.
kinda missing them a lot.
calista, gektheng, chengyong, diona, jonathan, nicole, jeremy, kokleong etc ....
meeting up with donut, nicole, cal and dvfx dearests next week. (:
*
ohhh,
i know it's pretty late to blog about this.
but i really do appreciate jumbo for coming all the way down to jurong on monday.
(:
i mean, she lives at sengkang, hello.
so nice of her. ((:
and of course,
we don't know where to go and sit down to talk.
walked all the way to chevron.
sit at the pool there and talked, shared.
ended up, talked till 1am-2am?
door locked,
gotta climbed out.
classic.
got into a cab like anyhow?
hahaa.
super late supper, or super early breakfast with kuku.
anyway, it's really nice of them.
thanks dears! (((((:
weiru is coming back sooooon!
like finally.
gosh.
can't wait, cousin!
yeah,
i know.
finally a proper post.
lol.
whatever.
ciao.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:38 AM :)
27 March, 2009
is it really that weak?
i seriously don't believe so..
mmmm.
the bombardment.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:52 PM :)
goodness,
i didn't know some things are sooooo complex.
faints.
complications.
hohoho.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:25 PM :)
when only song lyrics could convey how i feels..
when the going gets tough,
the tough gets going.
the battle.
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:07 PM :)
25 March, 2009
when words couldn't describe the days ..
so yeah,
no updates for you guys.
hiatus?
| till death do us apart<3 | 10:17 PM :)
23 March, 2009
recently been so into the song Almost by Tamia.
haha.
i like the danzation dance for this song too!
NRA practices,
4 times per week starting from this week.
woah.
will the rainbow last?
will the stars stay in the sky still?
too many, too much.
Yeah, that is one time I should have broke the rules.
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:08 AM :)
21 March, 2009
awesome, i flunked my BTT.
haha. but i didnt cry.
nope, i didn't.
i laughed out loud even though i'm kinda sad.
days nowadays are bleak.
am i fine, am i better, am i okay?
idk.
when your mind don't tally with your heart,
it's disaster.
i'm afraid of the fear ..
| till death do us apart<3 | 12:58 AM :)
20 March, 2009
result out.
hmmm.
GPA 2.9167
i don't feel a thing.
so i dunno if i'm happy or sad.
BTT later.
i'm still feeling scare about it.
| till death do us apart<3 | 10:18 AM :)
19 March, 2009
AMAZING.
Renee Tan slept at 5am and woke up at 930am
on a holiday!
u see, i'm not a pig afterall.
4 1/2 hours.
woah.
i thought i would be slpg till 1pm-2pm.
but well.
insomnia.
| till death do us apart<3 | 11:13 AM :)
one sentence,
i'll be strong.
a mixed of emotions.
happy, sad.
expected, disbelief,
everything.
haha.
but well.
everything's gonna be okay.
just dance.
| till death do us apart<3 | 12:42 AM :)
18 March, 2009
couldn't differentiate between truth and lies anymore.
please,
stop lying and stop hiding.
i wanna trust wholeheartedly.
i wanna see the rainbow after the rain.
sorry to all those who have been worried for me.
thanks and sorry.
i'm giving it one last try.
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:36 AM :)
17 March, 2009
[/edited]
forever?
say it only when you mean it.
so what if it's between?
what's the meaning of putting it?
i don't get it.
even today and right now..
you can ...
what more do you want me to say?
so indifferent you are, still.
i miss those good old songs that once were playing.
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:05 AM :)
Say Goodnight - The Click Five
Our seperation has it's faults
But I don't wanna leave it all
So write the letters in teary ink
I just need some time to think
And I just need some time to breathe
Baby just say goodnight
I'll be gone tomorrow
Baby just close your eyes
I can't take the sorrow
Baby just walk away
You know I can't stay
There's no easy way to say goodbye
So baby just say goodnight
We're in a spell that never ends
The empty hourglass wore me thin
So let the phone do it's work
Your voice is heaven
But it hurts
Your words are memories
But they burn
Baby just say goodnight
I'll be gone tomorrow
Baby just close your eyes
I can't take the sorrow
Baby just walk away
You know I can't stay
There's no easy way to say goodbye
So baby just say goodnight
Baby don't say goodbye
Baby just close your eyes
And dream,tomorrow's on it's way
So just walk away
Baby just say goodnight
I'll be gone tomorrow
Baby just close your eyes
I can't take the sorrow
Baby just walk away
You know I can't stay
There's no easy way to say goodbye
So baby just say goodnight
Baby just say goodnight
>
got this song sometimes, quite long ago.
always thought it's kinda nice.
<
my knees are heavy.
i'm strengthless.
it feels like every step i take is consuming a lot of strength.
for every 10-15 mins,
i would feel like dropping to the ground.
no, i can't.
i stopped to take a breather,
and continue.
my heart was heavy,
my mind was confused.
my emotions were overwhelming.
it feels like anytime, out of nowhere,
i would just break down on my knees,
and burst into tears.
it hurts.
i'm holding on to the last things dearly.
| till death do us apart<3 | 12:32 AM :)
15 March, 2009
if my blog posts have been sad recently,
that's why it seemed like it's just another thing when i'm upset,
then you've got no idea how much i'm affected.
every single day gotta suppressed all the emotions within,
controlling,
and not allowing it to ruin my whole day or spoil everything.
but at certain point of time,
just break down.
one after another.
just before this is resolved,
another came.
&*#^&%@$!
i'm tired,
seriously am.
LIES.
what are these to you?
how would you feel when you trusted somebody fully,
and yet knowing it it's all just lies.
how would you feel when ...
okay okay, whatever whatever.
i feel so not me.
who am i?
sometimes words aren't the best comforting/consoling tool.
perhaps just a shoulder or hug will be better.
when everything come crashing down,
everywhere seem so dark,
you just need a helping hand,
and a light to reach down.
i wonder ..
| till death do us apart<3 | 11:43 PM :)
A personality test i took.
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
true? quite i guess. but me full of confidence? that's ... a bit hmm, no? oh! unless i haven find my true self. lol.
just for fun, and i thought it's rather interesting!
goodnight peeps.
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:31 AM :)
14 March, 2009
shucks.
this is bad.
messy is the new pretty?
| till death do us apart<3 | 12:29 AM :)
11 March, 2009
i miss the happy R.
i miss the crazy R.
i miss the ever-so-high R.
i miss the R that's full of smiles.
i miss the R with thunderous laughter.
i miss the R who's so carefree.
i miss myself?
uh, that sounds so weird.
but still,
i miss the usual cheerful me.
come back, R.
| till death do us apart<3 | 11:52 PM :)
i miss late night hanging out so much.
but i can't,
esp these few days,
until things got better.
sighs.
it feels so weird at home,
so lifeless.
this week has been abnormal.
normally i would just go out as and when i like, anytime of the day,
come home late and things like that.
but these few days,
even if going out, i'm also feeling scare.
scare of how things will be at home,
scare of how my mummy will feel/think.
scare of this, scare of that.
always got to base on feeling, atmosphere den can say certain things, den can go out.
cannot come home too late,
else she'll say things like what she said to me this morning,
and i feel when she said that she's thinking she's not needed in this family.
but that's not the case.
everything become so sensitive within this family,
every little thing,
every little action,
every single word.
sighs.
yes, i think i need a doctor for my back soon.
it's getting worse day by day.
God, be my healer.
it feels so weird.
are you okay?
am i okay?
| till death do us apart<3 | 11:10 PM :)
enjoy the chilling at west coast somehow.
nice atmosphere, nice sky,
stars hanging above.
funny, crappy people.
what lack i believe is cool breeze.
but well,
it's still good.
serenity.
i hope you enjoyed yourself today, dear. (:
i know you ate a lot of cakes this birthday.
hahahaha.
but still,
we love you!
*
sensitivity?
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:05 AM :)
10 March, 2009
it isn't a very good way to start of my day.
subconsciously,
but i know what's going on ..
nevertheless,
i'm looking forward to evening,
meeting up with the people,
and celebrate DIONA'S birthday! ((((:
iloveyou, dear!
can't wait!
secret says: (12:42:56 PM)
'if there's a music that never ends,i would dance till my very last breath.' there is..its called music of life.u cant hear it.u can feel it.
secret says: (12:47:54 PM)
so dance ur whole life.i helped u found the music
secret says: (12:48:32 PM)
the music is within u.
secret says: (12:48:41 PM)
dance out how u feel
thanks so much for this, girl.
somehow i feel,
something is stirring within.
i know You're in control this.
| till death do us apart<3 | 12:43 PM :)
i know of a very strong and patient woman.
looking at the bowl of vermicelli,
it was hardly touched for half an hour or so.
whatever that was kept within is all poured out.
she talked and talked non stop.
it feels like it has been so long since she really have got someone to talk to.
i felt the sadness, brokenness, desire etc in her words.
tears welled up in her eyes gradually when she slowly speaks of everything in details.
her eyes were red, so was her face.
i know, she tried very hard to hold back her tears.
she suffered in silence,
she put up with scoldings,
she put up with sarcasm,
she ignore the judgement,
she tolerate everything negative from the young, old everyone.
she doesn't has anyone to really talk to.
she put her whole heart into the family.
she sacrifices.
she supports whatever he does, be it right or wrong.
all she needs is the security, the trust.
the suspicion she has seemed to be overwhelming.
everything seemed so possible to be the truth, i agree.
what did he do?
did he really do anything or nothing at all?
no one knows, except for him.
i know, i could feel she loves him.
but i really don't know if he loves her still.
i couldn't feel anything.
i know she loves me,
i know he loves me.
but it definitely isn't enough to sustain everything.
it breaks my heart to hear all those things.
each time her eyes welled up with tears,
i don't know what to do at all.
my eyes turned away from her eyes,
looking at the passer-bys or just continue eating.
my heart is breaking.
i didn't know how to react.
i feel like crying,
but i can't.
i've to be strong.
i'm angry,
i'm angry with him.
but i don't know the facts at all.
and at the same time,
i couldn't bring myself to be angry with him.
because i love him,
and i know of all that he've done for me,
and is still doing.
each night he sat alone down there,
thinking and racking his brain to think of more ways to earn more.
despite being financially tight,
he gave whenever i ask for it,
he always tries to give me whatever i want.
i remember,
31Jan'09,
my birthday party.
he came up to me saying,
"you wanted to buy an ipod right? take this and buy it",
hanging over to me a red packet of $250.
i'm lost for words. i'm touched.
i remember each night
he would call and ask if i wanna supper,
i remember last night each night,
he would come into my room,
and cover my blanket for me.
i remember how we always kick each other's butt.
but ...
that's towards me,
what about her?
idk.
i couldn't forget what she said.
"he said i always sleep very early. but have he ever think that i'm always all alone at home. what else can i do? i've to cover everything, occupied myself by sleeping"
i felt so bad.
i'm such a bad girl.
despite that voice telling me that she's filled with loneliness,
i chose to brush it aside,
thinking it's just some random thoughts.
i've never spare a thought for her,
or for him...
she said,
"i'll just tolerate everything. and if one day i couldn't take it anymore, i would just leave quietly."
i remember a few years ago.
things were very bad.
i was holding the card then,
i was scare,
but i did it.
this time round,
it's me again.
the same fear,
but it's worse now.
i wanted to speak to him,
but i no longer know how to start.
it's awkward.
the moment i see him,
i just feel like crying.
tell me how.
things have improved throughout the years,
i thought.
but now,
i'm even more afraid than ever.
things seemed to be going on in silence.
i don't know a thing.
maybe, maybe things aren't that bad afterall.
even as i walked home with lam and cal just now,
all of us just listen to our own respective songs.
i thought through a lot, a lot.
a lot of thoughts on different things just run through my mind
i'm scare,
i'm upset,
i'm angry (?),
i'm lost,
i'm ..
idk.
dance.
there'll be a danzation freshie item going on in april.
yes, i'm dancing.
i thought i would be happy,
because initially i thought i lost the chance to dance that item after i backed out from danzation.
now the chance comes.
but idk what i'm feeling.
i'm scare ..
i'm ...
having mixed feelings ..
and it really sucks.
my own life.
sometimes i really feel like slapping myself.
sometimes i'm just so angry with myself.
sometimes i just really dunno what i really want.
it's going way down .. ??
it's when you feel you don't know who you can talk to,
it's when you feel everyone is so caught up with their own lives, problems,
it's when you wonder who really cares and bothers,
it's when you wonder who is really willing and interested to listen to you,
you know there's One there,
always listening as long as you speak.
he's a great man, she's a great woman.
both of them, i love.
P.S : something very personal. would really appreciate it if you keep it to yourself. thanks.
just dance,
gonna be okay
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:00 AM :)
09 March, 2009
i couldn't tell myself not to go for NRA later.
that's why i need my back to be okay.
it hurts badly, you know.
it hurts.
sighs.
whatever.
crapcrapcrapcrap
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:22 PM :)
ouch, it hurts.
:(
my back is in a very bad condition.
it seemed like every 2-3 min,
i've gotta move, change my postion, my posture everything.
it hurts be it standing, sitting, whatever.
anddddd,
there's NRA tomorrow.
:(
i wanna dance.
i hope i can.
my body system seemed to be failing,
slowly, gradually.
it feels like everything inside is screwed.
long day tml.
i'm going off to sleep.
goodnight, people.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:19 AM :)
08 March, 2009
i didn't know i've got gastric problem untill recently.
no, i didn't skip any meals or anything.
has been having gastric pain quite often recently.
ohman, it's bad.
went for AGM, 1pm-5pm. (wow)
pretty alright, the passing down, and addressing of certain issues.
watched a movie - A Time For Dancing.
awesome show. based on true story
i've never know there is someone with such unfailing, undying passion, love for dance.
totally encouraged, motivated, touched everything you can say.
even before she dies, she wanna dance the last dance.
it's just ... amazing.
cabbed back to church.
and something special this week.
elizabeth came back from china and she danced in service.
sweeet. great.
it's just different when God is with you, when it's God who gave you the dance.
you just sense the difference.
sermon as usual.
service ended. dru asked me what do i think of Elizabeth's dance.
cabbed to yiting's house with cake for diona.
crapped here and there, chatted with yt's mum a lil.
went down to proceed with our spaghetti that yt cooked.
hmmmmm. hahahaha. comments?
not bad lah! lol. for a first timer. (thanks yiting!)
weiqiang came to pick me up with DK.
went west mall to pick cal, evan, michlo and joash.
headed to hollandv, essential brew.
junhong joined.
slack slack slack.
everyone's kinda tired.
headed home.
on the way,
cal is super high.
DK is her boyf for the day, and they're so sweet(?). hahahahah!
Weiqiang sent one by one home.
dashed thru several red lights. (oppps!)
and i'm home..
*
yes, i need a revival.
a revival within.
Dear God ..
*
if there's a music that never ends,
i would dance till my very last breath.
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:25 AM :)
07 March, 2009
i thought today (or rather, yesterday) is a nice, pleasant day.
(:
lunch-ed with mummy and baby (gektheng) at CU.
headed back to FHSS to help out in chinese dance.
danced together with baby,
choreo-ed a bit of dance. ((((((:
scolded the juniors.
received a sms from xueli. (thanks so much!)
baby's kinda pissed, karen's kinda discouraged.
me? mixed feelings.
left FHSS.
received a call from yaxin. (you're so sweet, my dear! and and and you know i'll and never be lazy to reply you!)
met evan.
chatted a while with jasmine.
headed to clarke quay.
ate dinner.
met junhong and calista.
chilled by the riverside. ((((((:
bumped into sylvester and adelene (?).
continue chilling and chatting
played with cal's camera.
teased junhong and evan.
da ben joined.
mum called saying she's gonna lock the door if i'm not home at 12am.
went for supper, cos da ben and evan is hungry.
headed to tcc(?), which actually is coffee club. (blur calista)
cal trying to act les with me. (LOL!)
evan, junhong and da ben ate.
for dunno what reason, my head and cal's bumped into each other. (OUCH!)
bro called to ask if i'm going home alr.
listen to calista's sweet story. (anddd! i'm not jealous! hahahah)
laughed, crapped, talked. (((:
paid, left coffee club.
bumped into Maybelle and friends at taxi stand.
cut queue (oppps!)
received text from jiayu
home sweet home.
( i hope i didn't miss out any lil parts!)
i thought it was a nice day.
(((:
simple, pleasant day.
nice place, fun-loving companies, nice atmosphere.
at least,
i laughed, she laughed, he laughed, everyone laughed.
contented?
i guess so.
(((:
hey dear, i know you're discouraged with results or anything.
i'm sorry i aren't of any help regarding studies.
but yea, don't be demoralized alright.
it isn't the end.
try harder next time.
we all learn from mistakes, alright.
don't ask me not to care, silly.
you know i will care.
cheer up, dear!
loveyou!
tomorrow will be a better day.
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:25 AM :)
06 March, 2009
have been crying too much lately.
it's time to stop,
get up,
and be strong.
when you down,
as much as you don't feel like laughing/smiling,
do it.
you'll feel happier unknowingly.
(i agree. it's just that amazing.)
someone once said this to me:
"when you smile the room lights up. that's what i notice when i first saw you."
thanks so much for this,
it's really ... encouraging, sweet.
it's time to smile.
(:
i miss the times when laughters filled the sky,
and craziness is just in us.
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:41 AM :)
05 March, 2009
lost in my sanity,
maybe a hug will do.
| till death do us apart<3 | 11:47 PM :)
just because it's no shown,
doesn't mean it's fine.
you've got no idea.
| till death do us apart<3 | 10:14 PM :)
Love is like a wind,
can't see it,
but i can feel it.
| till death do us apart<3 | 9:08 PM :)
don't tell me you love me
when you're leaving me like that.
no dinner again, tonight.
| till death do us apart<3 | 7:35 PM :)
i must have been a fool.
you're not me,
don't think for me what's the best.
you never know what you're doing is making me feel worse than ever.
don't make me feel like i never know you before,
please.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:27 AM :)
04 March, 2009
i'm so gonna die tomorrow,
no, it's later.
meeting kuku and gang at 845am Je.
and i've yet to be in bed.
i hope, i won't be late.
and i pray for good weather.
yea, sentosa!
(:
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:36 AM :)
02 March, 2009
i hate to realise the fact that i've got a weak body.
even since young ...
it's time to strengthen my body.
i need a stronger, fitter, healthier body.
thank You, God.
for being with me.
i know the difference,
i see the difference.
You're the difference.
| till death do us apart<3 | 11:28 PM :)
i don't feel good.
and i can't explain why.
over sensitivity or what?
you tell me.
| till death do us apart<3 | 12:20 AM :)
01 March, 2009
i've thought of what to do in this hols already.
(((((:
i hope,
i seriously hope,
i really really hope it will be good.
fyi, it's not work.
lol.
though i see a lot of discouragement coming in the way.
but well.
God,
give me the wisdom, the inspiration, and everything that i need.
help me in this, Lord.
You know how much i need You to be with me.
| till death do us apart<3 | 11:36 PM :)
