Dance In His Love ;

talentless or what.

08 February, 2009

sometimes i really wonder. wonder so deeply, so far away. what is dance to me, what am i in dance? seriously, i dunno. i know i love dance, i know i wanna excel, i know i wanna be a good, awesome dancer. i know i won't mind giving up my studies to go dance. i know i won't mind investing time, energy, money in dance if i've got the opportunities. but, it just seemed like i can't do it. watched a few videos on practices, and bo's and yiu's practices. i'm discouraged, disappointed, totally. i look back on how stressed i will be during each practices, how much i feel like crying when i don't do well, i think it just ... suck? i don't know. where's the feel? where's the moves? where's the aura? where where where is it? totally admire NRA seniors. people like JJ, orange, becca, jaei, ken, zixiang and a lot a lot of them. they're awesome. yes i know, they've passed my stage. they went through it before. i know they put in a lot of hardwork, time, energy everything. but but but, at times, or rather most of the time, i just doubted if it is not the place for me. i don't know. yes, passion and love is there, but do i possess any other thing other than that?each time i see people dance, it just motivates me, but at the end of the day, i just feel "useless". many a times, i feel like giving up, but i don't bear to. many a times i just tell myself, work harder, try harder, next time i could be so much better. everyone's trying too, i just need to press on. but, i just become so discouraged. i don't know. dance, it got me high, got me low. i wonder, m i really that talentless in dance or what? m i not going to go far here? is there just a slight chance for me to excel, or many none?

perhaps i just need a hug, or a pat, or words that encourages.

and definitely, i need God so much more in this.

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