Dance In His Love ;

Melancholy :(

27 November, 2008

Depressing. very depressing. very very very depressing.

first of all, i've gained weight. maybe because of the reasons i've gained muscles from NRA, but definitely also because of my intake of food! crap. i'm depressed. i can't believe my weight now! okay, it can't be disclosed. for the two who know, you guys keep zip up ok! else, i'll kill you. okay, i know i sound very not serious here. but you know, i'm very affected. like really?

as much as i know God don't mind my body, my weight, my height everything, but only my heart, BUT, i'm still upset. like duh. which girl won't?

this is an undesirable weight. crap.

second. i haven found a dress for this sat's dinner. okay, i know i'm troublesome, i'm picky. initially getting the dress from pearlyn's blog, but you know what, it's so freaking short! like really. it's even shorter than my normal shorts. what about the dress i wore for my birthday? it's perfectly fine for the function. but! now i find it tooooo revealing. like really. okay, it's surprising to hear this from me, RENEE. but, it's true. hahahaha. so yea, i'm still racking my brain to think of places of where to get a dress which is appropriate - not too short, not too revealing.

help me, God. left 2 days.

and i feel, there's a lot of things i'm depressed about. but i dunno what is it. hahaha. okay, someone slap me. lol.

okay okay okay, i know i know i know. someone or 2 person is going to say because i'm pms-ing. hahaha. but i do agree! =X

i need to learn how to control my emotions even during pms period of time. :D

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