Dance In His Love ;

please.

22 October, 2008

Daddy, i know i know i'm not perfect. i know there's a lot of things about me that i need to change. i know. i know in the past i made a lot of mistakes. i know in the past there's so much flaws about me. i know in the past there's so much imperfection in me. now stilll, i can never be perfect, cos each day i'm learning to be like You.

But God, You know what. i felt so bad. i felt so restricted. i felt so suffocated. there seemed to an image etched inside people's mind/heart that i'm that way. jugdement? assumption? no way can i change. people assumed. assumed how my reply gonna be. jus because of past situations/experiences, they assumed the reply gonna be this way. God, it just sucks lar.

i wanna change, yes i wanna. but it just so ... i dunno. yes, i can just ignore wad other think of me. but, it's the replies that i got. Lord, i dunno. people change, isn't it? eveytime, everyday. people can change over a long span of time, or even jus a few days. yes i know, i changed. from time to time. i know, i feel it too. be it good or bad.

i just find it so hard to try to change when a "fixed me" is fixed in other's mind, Lord. at times it just get so discouraging. it almost seemed like surrounding is not allowing me to change for the better.

my past sucks. i'm imperfect. but i'm trying. i'm trying to be a better person, a person more Christ-like. a person with more patience, love etc.. at times i might fail, but i do am trying ..

Lord, embrace me.

when i lose myself, all i need is seek You.

Daddy, thank You.

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