joy within lost. don't feel like talking much. unable crap and high like as usual. moodless to do anything. mood sway rapidly. thoughts come and go. go into deep in thoughts unknowingly. tears feel like dropping. it's even hard to cry at times. struggles. misses. prayers. seeking Him desperately. headache. giddy. weak. tired. assignments. lack of sleep. urge to go out during late night. tons of unspeakable words/feelings/thoughts. confused. wanna be alone yet don't wanna be alone. misses & misses. energy-draining. pressing on. holding on tight.