life's tough.so maybe as what i expected, or maybe its worst than that.
can't believe you actually say i fake it. damn.
things not the normal self, not the normal unhappiness.
perhaps thing won't be so bad if nothing happen at mac.
things were still in control, but feelings from morning alr surfaced.
so i screwed things up, whole relations ruined.
are you happy now? is this what u wanna see?
such a small thing. how ridiculous can you be.
i wont forget today, definitely.
it has never hurt so much before.
ohwells, i duno what has become of this whole.
feeling so upset and all sort of mixed feelings.
but, never mind.
things have alr become like this.
whatever is build up between the few of us, is gone just like that.
if only ..
sometimes i really feel im better off dead.
so much to say, yet unspeakable.
i wish i could just stop the tears from flowing.
i hate this.