31 March, 2008
out to mac with kuku, kelly and xiaobai. the rest all left.anyway, kinda a chill-out for me, after cooping at home whole day.
seriously, i appreciate them so much. like wad i've been saying for over dunno how many times, i always feel relax whenever im with them. never forgetting, how they show their care and concern. lol. certain things they said, struck me alot. and needless to say much, kuku understands it all. thanks girlies! you guys are loved deeply! :D
# cousin asked, showing her concern too! (: thanks girl. i miss you!
# weiting was there last night when it was hell. thanks and sorry, my dear. my words and such, i think its pretty unstable or whatever. but thanks so much for being there! (: did i scare you with wad i said? lol.
# yiqi, i dunno when you gonna read this. but still, im touched by you. ur unfailing care, concern, love. loveya dear! :D
# chengyong, thanks for the msg. (: it was really an unexpected one. hah. and u didnt even expect it urself! lol. so cute lah. which coin did u flip? hah. take care, alrights? (:
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:17 PM :)
when you feel that you're totally alone,
and you can't reach a single one,
when you just needed a shoulder to cry on,
a listening ear to hear you out.
and so desperately waiting for the call to be picked up.
but nobody is there.
God, please don't hide Your face from me.
i need You so much.
embrace me, O Lord.
im lost, im messed up.
heal my heartbreaks,
catch my tears,
take away my fears.
don't turn Your back on me, God.
im so afraid when i call upon You,
and yet i can't reach You.
here i am desperately seeking Your face.
show me Your face, O Lord.
sleep with tears,
wake up with tears.
when tears just coudn't stop falling.
& nothing seemed to make sense anymore.
cut the act, will you?
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:26 AM :)
30 March, 2008
Daddy,
sorry for not listening,
and now i've got myself in this state again.
i realised it You that i really need.
You care about every every little feeling that's within.
only You, no one else do.
i shouldn't have look too much to people.
i wanna put You and only You first, Lord.
i want Your love, Your joy.
most importantly, i want YOU.
Daddy, i've enough of this.
it's getting me so drained.
i need You so much.
i want You more than anybody else.
God, i'm gonna live this life for You, alone.
i love You, Jesus.
catch the tears that fall ..
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:59 PM :)
26 March, 2008
seriously, i've got no idea what to blog.& if every post is about my daily happenings, won't it be bored?
lalas.
was doing host today at work. okay, i think its alright. just that it's very quiet. i enjoyed doing host, dun ask me why. haha. had GC meeting today. first time attending the meeting. lol. so funny. throughout the whole meeting, i didnt really catch anything at all. know why? because im freezing! lol. mouth keep trembling, within stomach keep rolling, not because of hunger but coldness. it's a terrible feeling, alright. plus i keep taking notice of the door. haha. and yes, candice stunned me today! lalas. so malu. & i think me, weiting and weiru very bad. keep laughing at the girl whose leg is cramp. hahahaha. opps!
gng for FOC tml. but but but, will still see me online, cos im not staying over! haha.
God,
i wanna include You in my everyday life.
i wanna Your presence to be with me wherever i go.
i wanna others to know You're in me.
set me apart, & be the light of the world.
because You set me free,
now im living my life for You.
i love You, Jesus.
My Beloved. <3
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:48 PM :)
24 March, 2008
yes, i said i won't come online today,but still i wanna blog so much.
pardon me yeah.
so about today. hrmm.
mac for lunch with mum and brother. nothing much. left home ard 4.10pm, wanna head to work. but do this do that, photocopy this and that, untill i missed 334s. and i'll be late if i wait for another 334 and 97, so decided to cab to vivo.
the uncle was "awesome" man. drive very slowly, like at the speed of 80km/h or 100km/h, and the meter keep jumping. argh. and when i reached vivo, i've gotta pay like $13.40. so not worth it. :( never mind. at least im like so early for work. hah.
so yeaps, benjamin didnt wanna do host, so i changed with him. didn't wanna do server too, cos of the headache i got after taking the cab, not of the price lah. duh~ haha. work is pretty okay. EOS-ed with weiting, evan, weiru and benjamin. yes, and i like it. :D don't feel stressed or anything. everything's pleasant and nice! can we have more times of foursome together? haha.
ohya, did i mention weiting said "i love you" to me? haha. in chinese. she said it's her first time saying to someone. ohwells, i didn't really make her say it, partially perhaps and she said it willingly too! haha. right, weiting? LOL! :D she's gonna be so pai sey. haha.
foursome shared one cab home. (: all cabbed to weiting's house and she drove us to the prata shop to have dinner. fulllll.. no more hunger! hahahahha. enjoy their company lots! they're loved! :D after that, went spinning around. weiting keep saying wanna send us home, or rather me first, and i dun want! LOL! can't believe i "cried" okay, but that's not crying alright. i also dunno wad's that. haha. laugh and tear at the same time. slacked a while at mac, and she sent us home. :D thanks so much, weiting! :D loves!
and yes, never forgetting, my dearest kuku texted me. and im so surprised can? lol. she's soooo sweet lah! send me msg to remind me to eat. jiang nice right? LOL. dun worry, i wun faint. not i starve myself, just no appetite. and ur messages really warmed me heart lah! love you lots, dearest! ((((:
is my laughter really that funny? LOL.
alrights. im gng to sleep. nowadays has been slpg at ard 4am 5am plus. lalas.
good morning, people! (:
| till death do us apart<3 | 7:40 PM :)
22 March, 2008
here i am to blog again.yes, jus reached home from work, haven bathe, nothing. =X
it's seriously feel so good using lappy on my comfy bed!! :D ok, it's because grandma and aunt came my house to stay over again and i cant use the table, cos their mattresses are blocking! lalas.
these few days will be working eos. which means, many wun see me online. lol. miss me? hrmmm.
tml's church day. awesome. :D
& there's work after that too!
ohya, im proud to announce i've worked for 2 weeks! hahahaha. break u guys two or three days, or even one week of "expectations" for me. lol. ok, i think i phrase tt sentence badly. haha. but who cares!
i've yet to practice the dance in o school. jialat. monday is coming. haha.
i'm discussing with weiting now, the day for supper! hahaha. tentatively is tml after work, or should i say today. so cute right, eat supper like 2plus 3 in the morning.
& dun forget, we've yet to catch a movie together! four-some. hahaha.
weiting told me she slimmed down, cos of work i guess? haha. and yes, i guess i'll slim down too. missed alot of meals due to work. haha. no because they dun let me eat, but either is no time, or no appetite, dunno why. but slimming down is a good thing lah! at least for me. hahaha.
ohya, she made me eat by saying if i don't eat, she won't either. lol. so sweet right? and she made for me an ai xin mushroom soup yesterday during closing! hahaha. loves loves loves!
im missing so many people .. eg, yiqi, szeting, calista etc. the list goes on...
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:09 PM :)
20 March, 2008
promises .. what are they, really?
how come i never have faith this in promise before?
when you feel you're being left all alone ..
& i not gonna compromise.
| till death do us apart<3 | 7:16 PM :)
hasn't been blogging, i know. tired from work, each day. hah.
alright. finally a day off, but still we visited work place. this time not to work, but to experience wad the patrons eperienced each day. haha. comfortable seats, food and drinks, cooling air con, blankets blah blah. lol! and know what, candice served us the gold wings. no wonder it's so tasty! hahaha. okay, candice is Gold Class manager, and she's HOT! no deny. im like so interested in her brother! hahah. they say he's hot and handsome. he's a model. oh my!
thanks theresa and hafidz for the popcorn, weiru and weiting for the warm hospitality! hahaha.
&&& how nice is our dear manager, Miss Chen Wei Ting to even give me 5 blankets when i merely requested for it, for FUN. hahahahhaa. and she really took it and put it there. laugh untill i wanna die. so shocked sia.lol! so funny can. hahaha. i think if she's to plan any birthday surprise, sure win one! hahaha.
ohya, i jus remembered. on the bus home. evan and me are watching the small tv. and there's this singing show. duh~ and they only see two notes- me and aw. like some form of cat communicating. i keep laughing and laughing, and it so xin ku can. cos i cant laugh out loud. the bus is filled with ppl. stomach pain and arm cramp. so lame. and we're saying too bad calista is not with us. if not i'll haf someone to laugh out loud with me. hahahahha. my crazy highing kaki.
calista, you saw this? i miss you so much lah! (((:
i realised i've got alot to update. but seemed like i cant rmb most of it.
okay, i went down NP to install my lappy thingy. and of cos, i wun forget to give big thanks to my dearest kuku for accompany me, helping me with the stuffs uh. you're not my maid, okay? hahhaa. thanks! loves! (((:
and never forgetting, biao ge, thanks for the chicken rice that day! ((((:
thanks weiting for the company yesterday after my work, her movie. haha. if not i'll be like so bored uh. ((((: nice talking to you!
alright. yesterday ended work early. out with andrew lin to town. wanted to get something but i didnt. and ended up i've gotta treat him movie cos im late. haha. homed after movie. he asked alot of qns about someone. hahaha. whatever.
i forget the dance stwp tt ryan taught. shittt. he said monday he wanna see everyone doing it. oh my. how how how.
tml's working time is late! cool. i can slp all i want. from 730pm to 250am. lolls. meeting mich up for discipleship too! (:
God,
fill me with the fruits of Your Holy Spirit.
You're all tt i yearn for.
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:43 PM :)
18 March, 2008
tired. superrrr tired.
work these few days has been morning shift. had difficulty getting up. haha. i wonder how im gng to survive when sch reopens. lol.
but still, work is alright. perhaps im just very tired. hah.
went for the very first hip hop lesson today. ok, im brain dead. hah. very tired. was surprised Ryan still asked us to do pumpings. gosh. i wanna die. hah. i like the steps alot, but its not tt easy to perfect it. ohya, did i mention the song is Last Night? lol. familiar uh?
i play cheat and he caught me! hahahahaha.
tml morning shift again. gonna slp early today. work gonna end early tml. and i seriously dunno where to head. mummy's gng malaysia too. im gonna be bored at home! lalas!
God, i've forsaken You for so long.
leaving You outta my daily lives for days.
im sorry.
my days are messed up without You.
and i know i need You just so much ..
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:25 PM :)
15 March, 2008
with the right intention,
but with wrong thinking,
wrong person,
wrong emotions,
or rather,
not wrong person,
just empty promise,
and i got it screwed up, like again.
like, i always do things wrongly.
with this spinning bad headache.
it's enough.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:08 PM :)
14 March, 2008
hrmmm. i dunno why i'm in blogger again at this hour. was talking to my dearest cousin, weiru about work at Gold Class.
yes, no deny im seriously enjoying there. work is never a chore for me anymore! hah. im surprise to hear me saying this myself too! lol.
managers there are niceeee. im so glad my first trainer is weiting luh! like what evan also agreed, she's the superrrr niceee one can? superb! good-tempered, nice, crappy, "naughty", etc. haha. okay, i sound like im promoting her. yeah, whatever. anyway, so honoured she's my trainer lah! :D thanks, weiting! (though i know she wun see this) haha!
hafidz and aisyah was my second and third day trainer respectively. good good! (: have got the confidence to take order and such. hafidz stern, yet nice. aisyah fun, crappy and nice too! thanks! (((:
& did i mention im a noob in computer/lappy stuff? haha. i dunno how to charge my macbook! i mean, like everything dun match. hah. gotta seek help soon!
have been having migraine recently. & its getting worse. rahs.
| till death do us apart<3 | 6:00 PM :)
sup sup sup! im here.
yeaps, using my beloved now. im like so scare to hurt it like that, can? hah. crap.
ohya, i've yet to complain about this!
stated at the brochure, its $2148. and i dunno how come i can miss out the 7% GST. which means, totally is $2298.36!
& i dun haf enough to pay. luckily evan is there. hah. thanks, girl! LOVES!<3
it hurts so much to see the expression on my dad's face yesterday when i told him about buying a lappy and such. and yes, there's still school fees to come. :(
going down to NgeeAnn again tml with kuku, xiaobai and emily? needa install the things and MAYBE i will consider going for the colour vision test. duh~ troublesome.
and there's work tml! ((((:
ohya, going for the orientation camp, FOC. ((: FMS also has a camp. still deciding if im going. haha. mich, are you going? :D
alright, step up2 is still alright. the dance is nice! lolls.
i love guys who dance! :D
diona, will you be the first to see this post? hahahaha. i think so!
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:09 PM :)
13 March, 2008
since some time before i blogged.
work has been good till now. (: enjoyed work alot, and the person are just nice and fun. i just dun have the feel im working at all. time flies and i will be knocking off just like the next moment. lolls.
a few more days to my first dance lesson in O school. cant wait! (((:
alright. im like kinda drained by the schedule for this coming week. ohya, the schedule planning is funny. from thurs to the next wed.
tml - off.
fri - 1800 to 2455
sat - church
sun - 920 to 1810
mon - 1115-1615 ( dance lesson after that )
tues - off
wed - 955 to 1500
during fri - mon i think will be very tired. :(
God, be with me. i need You!
nowadays mood are bad. dunno why.
God, only You are with me whenever i need You.
each time i call out to You, You hear me.
You never leave me for even a single min.
i know im never alone,
cos You're always there. <3
one step closer, possible?
| till death do us apart<3 | 12:53 PM :)
11 March, 2008
simple day. (: send darl to work on her first day! headed to ps to meet kuku and xiaobai for lunch, since i've got nothing to do anyway. and den, went to meet my beloved cousin, WEIRU! (((: alright, slacked at the bubble tea shop for a good 2 hours plus. thanks for your company, people!
cousin, totally "surrender" at your words. nice, and selfless. well said. (: i love you, alright? hah.
tml got a good 5 hours to work with darl! YAYNESS! but but but, i will be like ending work at 1210am? awww. den reach home ard 1am? gosh. whatever.
it's better to have love and lost, than never love at all.
i give up.
no more first step.
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:17 PM :)
09 March, 2008
work today was good! so much so, i feel like working extra hours. hahaha. and know what, tml im like sooo free, and i feel like gng to work. okay, madness.
time passed soooooo fast can. and hafidz is nice lah! tho abit stern, but because of him, i've got the confidence to take order now! ((((: it's not as hard as what i think, actually. to think yesterday im still worrying how will it be like today, and that conclude it will be a bad day. but it's totally opposite!
first time im so enthu in work! hahaha.
tml's evan's first day of work! ((((: jiayous, alright? we'll be able to meet in work on tues, tho it's only 5 hours or so. but who cares lah. haha. hope you'll enjoy tml! love you girl!
met up with szeting dar, calista darling, nicole deardear to celebrate diona ah ma's birthday! hahaha. ajisen! yummy! okay, sorry for being late. held up at work. hahaha. ah ma, are you happy? lol. cake was a surprise ehhh. hahaha. nice hor? big slice hor? LOL. anyway, we gonna meet on wed again! YAYNESS! photos' a must alright? love you girls!
if i told you that i love you, would it matter at all?
you said you will, but you didn't.
& i will carry on waiting.
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:40 PM :)
no more such things ever.
& i can't believe it because of this, i feel like crying.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:31 PM :)
alright. started work yesterday. (: weiting was my trainer. she's sooooo nice luh! patient, friendly, kind, caring, everything lah! haha. nice experience, but i just dun dare to take orders yet. cos cos cos, the menu is difficult! haha.
tml second day of work. weiting not gonna be there. :( hafidz's gonna be my trainer. & he look fierce. dunno how my day's gonna be like. hope it's alright. and time will pass fast!
& i definitely need God to be there with me!
yes, i admit im not the working type. dun like to work, but can't afford to. haha. imagine im out in the society, guess i'll be dead. lol!
what's crossing my mind now is which day to take off already. haha. whatever. but nah. im not gonna do that! LOL! i will endure. hahahahah.
constantly on my mind ..
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:59 PM :)
07 March, 2008
alright. the manager called me today. surprised. darl still haven got the call, but definitely got the job alr. (((:
&&& i wanna complain!
xiaobai, kuku, kelly says i will only work for two days. and daddy says i will only work for three days! rahs! they looked down on me. sadded. haha.
tml first day of work. (: 7 hours. haha. i hope it gonna be good. wonder when darl is going to start work. hopefully will be in the same shift somehow. haha.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:24 PM :)
06 March, 2008
im angry! how come they didn't call back again when they say they will?
i've waited for a day plus alr.
hope to receive the call tml.
hah. okay. the call is from GV.
lalalalas.
fyi, im superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr bored now.
wish to get out of the house,
but nobody, nowhere. :(
sadded.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:21 PM :)
05 March, 2008
i guess im down with headache again.
nowadays, it keeps hitting me, everyday.
hate it, alright?
stomach don't feel well either. :(
& yepps, gonna start work soon! (:
last month of work before school starts.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:26 PM :)
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:04 AM :)
04 March, 2008
just realised,
be it renée or renee, its still pronounce as renée (reh-nay).
haha.
just a matter of whether people know how to pronounce it correctly! LOL.
like pastor, he knows how to pronounce renee(reh-nay) correctly! COOLNESS!
so perhaps whether its é or e, it don't matter!
but of cos i prefer it perfect. which is, renée. (((((:
& my new i/c showed Renee Tan Hui Ting. (((:
proud of it!
okay, i know im random to post about my name, like again.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:00 PM :)
i withdrawned.
conceal-ed heart.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:39 PM :)
03 March, 2008
alright, so much that bring me down. now there's one thing that brings me up!
DADDY FINALLY ALLOWED ME TO JOIN O SCHOOL! (((((: like finally, can? haha. and he spon me too! (((: awesome! i no need to miss dance that badly anymore, cos i will be back in dancing career soon! ((:
dance is love! <333!
dedicated to gektheng, my dearest baby.
see la, you've wasted ur tears, your brain to think. lolls. should jus message tell me, ask me lah.(((: i assured you, it's not you alr uh. (: dun think so much alright. history maker! i love you, darling!
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:15 PM :)
bored bored bored. going to grandma's birthday in a while's time. lalas.
gonna catch a movie with szeting dardar and grace mummy on tues? (((: haha. i supposed its The Leap Years again. :X always enjoy the company of the girls. LOVES<3
that's all nothing.
now i know.
so what in the first place.
that's not a reason.
& it's because of happenings.
yea, whatever.
conceal-ed heart.
speaks no more.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:16 AM :)
02 March, 2008
let me cry, cry all this out.
so long so long since im like that.
i thought i've become stronger.
perhaps indeed i really have,
but still, there's weak time.
| till death do us apart<3 | 6:24 PM :)
01 March, 2008
29th february. i didnt know there's something behind this date! haha.
if a girl was to date a guy on this date, the guy cant reject. else fined!
hahaha. is it true? whatever lah. i didnt date any guy also. hahaha.
okay, got to know this from The Leap Years. (((: went to watch with evan, yiqi and weng qin. it's really a sweet movie. love it! haha. touching too! don't mind watching another time, seriously. (((: alright, i teared. haha. it's really touching, alright? romance .. ya, whatever. hahahaha!
dinner-ed with yiqi and wengqin and pizza hut, jurong east. all ate same things, but different drinks. hah. saw sze ting with the JJ-ians. and surprised to know hendy in the same family with her! so cool uh. lolls. seemed like sze ting dardar, diona and yiqi have fate with my primary school friends. hendy & jiayi, they all know them! (((:
so long since i last chatted with st dardar. alright, it's really nice to talk to her lah. miss her so much can? haha. <3
i've decided not to care anymore. isn't it kinda expected? yea, let it be.
it's always easy to say, but never mean it.
if that's wad call _______ .
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:50 PM :)
