many people come and go. tell me if im still remembered or alr forgotten.
so much so much for all the words.
gym-ed today with kuku and darl. (: thanks kuku for coaching! and sorry for making all so pai sey. haha.
anyway, me and kuku affair no more! HAHA.
alright. dunno how many millions year i never stepped into blogger. lol.
these two days have been pretty simple lah. sunday went out with kelly and pingleh to plaza sing. shopped for kelly's outwear. dinner with xiao bai. ((((: went over to raffles place, walked awhile den headed back to jurong point. waited for the four to finish work, but only emily and evan came over to find us. nothing much. did some stupid thing on the bus, and yep, went home.
yesterday. went out with kuku, who is my new affair. LOL! she wanna go art friend. and know what, its the first time i spent so long in a shop lah. my first time with kuku. haha. okay, i got very high inside. played with all sort of things. my new affair is soooo bad, keep ignoring me. lol. she also said, dunno why i choose her to be affair. haha. but she's cuteeeeeeeee lah! LOL! and yep, met kelly before going to big bookshop. ((: i began to like shopping in these kinda shops alr lah. haha. met evan, went pasa malam and home! ((: CHEESE TOFU!
intially badminto with lz, calista and evan. but stomach giving prob again. rahs! and they gonna play for so long. IM BORED! whatever.
ohya, i miss dance so much alright. wanted so so so much to join O School. but .. argh.
alright. people must be wondering if i get into mass communication. lol.
sad to say, but no, i didnt make it there. instead, im posted to NgeeAnn poly, Digital Visual Effect. lol. perhaps like alot of people, including myself, i thought i would be superrrrr disappointed and cry and cry. lolls. but i didn't, dunno why. (:
well, i did went down to NP to ask about FMS courses. the lecturer said, its always possible to transfer to other courses. i think its after year 1. but perhaps will be slower than own batch by one semester. haha. who knows i might transfer to mass comm? lols. anyway, the modules for year 1 in DVFX and MCM is kinda similar. whatever lah. shall see how. haha.
and it definitely feels awesome to obey God. the joy unspeakable! i love this feeling, alright. now, i just wanna go where He wants me to go, and wait for His instructions. ((((:
outing with evan darl, yiqi laogong and baohui girlfriend!<333! and now we're at downtown east arcade! off we go to the escape theme park! my first time! thanks yiqi laogong! you're loved! when life gives you lemon, make lemonade. (:

















yiqi and bao hui were high up there! hahaha!
home superrr early today, 8pm. haha. hah. like alot to blog about, but i cant think of anything alr. ((: relatives are at my house now! playing mahjong again. haha!
simple, pleasant yet tiring day.
first of all, HAPPY VALENTINE TO ALL! ((:
valentine day, as well as my first day as relief teacher in corporation pri! ((: awesome!
alright, early morning at the bus stop saw kok leong! haha. surprising. den saw brenda and jingwen, followed by jeremy. and den kean yong was so shocked again to see me! lolls. as well as sze ting dardar and grace mummy! okay, obviously all gng JJC. hahaha.
brenda gave me the first valentine choco and den jeremy! thanks guys! LOVES! (:
alright, reached school. first class is 6.5. mrs chia asked me to be stern and firm, instead of smiling to them. but but, i still talk and chatted with them. fun-loving kids! haha. noisy, naughty but interesting! i cant bear to leave the class seriously. lolls.
and den recess, followed by 6.4A. its art lesson, and there's only 10 ppl. haha. pathetic. but its pretty slack. they draw and play with their own things and we headed to the hall for total defence assembly. (:
now its 6.1 turn. heard tt they are the best class? haha. but well, i didnt treat this class nice. ppl arguing over giving out of worksheets, people running here and there playing, and people shouting across the classroom. scolded them, before they really settled down and do their mock test. LOL. alright, and all the while is pin-drop silence alr. hahaa. cool uh.
seriously, i dun feel like im working at all today. seriously love this job as relief teacher. very interesting, in a pure innocent environment. (: how i wish i can work everyday! hahaha.
anyway, deed poll tml! ((((:
alright, shall update again. im superrr drained alr. (:
alright.
everything's wrong right from the start.
things that shouldn't happen, happen.
things that shouldn't be done, done.
but whatever it is,
i dun wanna continue being wrong anymore.
i do admit it's my fault. yes, i dare to admit.
& it's because i know its my fault,
im dun wanna continue my fault anymore.
so much so,
for the fear of rejecting ..
i've learnt a tough lesson.
alright, out with evan and calista to play pool at beauty world. (((: 2 rounds only, and headed to vivo to meet NICOLEdeardear with calista.
walked ard, slacked ard and talked. haha. alright, i dunno what im saying. lalas.
hrmm, deardear bought a short and i bought a bag! (((:
went candy empire and each bought something. ((: nothing much lah. simple day.
ohya, tml gonna be my first day reliefing in my motherhood sch, corporation pri! (((: yea, excited, but i dunno how it gonna be like. haha. mrs kwek says i cannot be friendly, neither can i smile. tough job uh. lols. least the kids take advantage of me! hahaha. alright, shall see tml how. lol.
deed poll on fri? yea, i think so. im surprised daddy agreed to it readily. hahaha. (((((:
okay, last week i just realised a important fact.
haha.
the difference between the name renee and renée.
thanks weiqiang for telling me!
so yep,
renee will be pronounced as " ri - ni "
renée will be pronounced as " reh - nay "
haha. so yep. my God-given name is renée, of cos! ((((: im proud of it, definitely!
initially i thought people who really know how to pronounce the name will know it straight. but weiqiang told me it can cause confusion without "é". haha!
now i think i gotta add a " ´ '' to my jersey no. 19! haha. whatever.
anyway, pastor know how to pronounce the right way when he saw the name! im like shocked. haha. and he replied, " you think your pastor stupid uh? ". LOL! i never think he is stupid before lah. i respect him lots! (:
ohya, i hope people will pronounce it the right way uh! renée, baby! haha.
& calista is so sweet to start calling me that alr! love ya, darling!
Here In My Life - Hillsong
I have never walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet
But at Your Word LordE
I receive Your faith
To walk on oceans deep
And I remember how You found me
In that very same place
All my failing surely would have drowned me
But You made a way
You are my freedom
Jesus You're the reason
I'm kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You here in my life
Here in my life
You have said that all the heavens
Sing for joy at one who finds
The way to freedom
Truth of Jesus
Bought from death into His Life
And I remember how You saw me
Through the eyes of Your Grace
And though the cost was Your Beloved for me
Still You made a way
You are my freedom
Jesus You're the reason
I'm kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You here in my life
Here in my life
You are my freedom
Jesus You're the reason
Desperation Band - I'll Be O.k.
I will throw myself down at Your feet
I will live out my life on my knees
You alone i run too
No one helps me like You
I'll be ok when iõm safe in Your arms
And the thoughts of this world fade away
I'll be ok with You
I'll be ok when itõs You by my side
And the tears of this life wipe away
I'll be ok with You
I'll be okI
will lay down my pride for Your grace
I will give anything for one look
One look at Your face
You alone i run to
No one helps me like You
I'll be
I'll be
I'll be ok with You
I'll be
I'll be
I'll be ok
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yes Lord, i'll be okay with You,
under Your wings.
whom shall i fear.
stop assuming, stop doubting, stop going into random thoughts.
But Lord, what done is done.
i fight for myself like You wanted me to, and i'll leave You to fight the rest for me! (:
it's already beyond my control.
God, You planned everything.
i will honour You with all i've got.
i will praise You where ever i go.
Glory be to You, Jesus. (:
So I wait upon you now,
With my hands released to you,
Where a little faiths enough,
To see mountains lifted move,
Yeah and I wait upon you now,
Dedicated to your will,
To this love that will remain,
A love that never fails
alright. here's the information about the interview in NP. =X
went back fuhua to get everything for my portfolio. things went very smoothly, unlike wad i expected. i've got whatever i want, in fact, more than that! thank God! (:
cabbed down to ngee ann with baby. met kuku and emily at the library. and yea, it was so sick when evan and emily smelled me, because of my perfume! hahaha. and yea, time to go for the interview!
went up. and guess wad, i didnt know stil need to mark attendance. haha. and know what, i saw my name highlighted in blue! its like only one or two in blue, one or two in purple. i didnt know what's tt mean. asked the guy who is v sociable. and he didnt wanna tell me, still crap saying because im special. haha.
so yep, the same guy bring me to sit outside the interview room. talked to me alot. like, " you must get into mass comm ", " i know you sure get into mass comm ", " just answer what they ask you " and alot more lah. very encouraging words, and he sounded so confident i will definitely get into. so funny. ohya, got to know from him, 100 over ppl were selected to go for interview only, when there's much much more who applied thru JPSAE. and only 35-40 ppl wil be enlisted into mass comm within the 100 over people. challenging uh? haha. ohya, he introduced himself and i still think its hard to pronounce. and he said, if i get into mass comm, next time see him must say hi, i replied saying, i will scream for him. and he said " yea, that's the way! " so funny right. lolls. talking to him really make me less nervous.
& thanks atiqa for msg me, and calling to share how's her interview! you're loved, babe!
thanks weiqiang, andrew, wanzi for sending prayers over! AMEN.
thanks to all those wishing me and praying for me! (((:
so, i went into the room. stressed sia. haha. first thing they asked me to talk about my cca. duh. so weird. so talk lo. and second, they asked wad did i put for JAE. hah. they're surprised how come i didnt put mass comm as the first choice, but instead accountancy. didnt have a chance to explain my results aren't enough to risk for mass comm either. and one guy asked me, " so if you're selected for accoutancy and mass comm, you would choose accountancy, i supposed? ", den i said, i would prefer mass comm. haha. he looked shocked. okay, and they're like fighting back on whatever i say. crap. i was almost dumbfounded. but in one way or another, i managed to even anyhow shoot an answer, though i dunno if it's "out of point". hahah. asked why i didnt joined FSV instead, how m i gng to work towards my goal etc. haha. whatever.
basically, i dun think i did very well in this interview. but still, i know God is with me. (:
nothing much. will know if im enlisted next tues, 19feb. alright, i hope it will be some good news! same goes for atiqa too! it wil be awesome if we can be in the same class too! hahaha.
oh ya. im very pek chek with one thing. hahaha. i spent so much effort on the portfolio, yet they didnt really use it. and they say no need keep too. crap. haha. same goes for all the others. i feel like killing people man.
O Lord, i've done what i can.
it's all in Your hand now.
God, by faith,
i claim this.
i will delight in You,
trust You, God.
help me, O Lord.
i did my best,
and You do the rest. (:
i love You, Lord.
Lord, i know im wrong. Holy Spirit, faith and trust. be with me, O Lord. i can't do it myself, You're never too late, i know.
i've limited You,
for that, im sorry, God.
You never fail to show up.
the peace You gave is totally different from the world.
i love it to know You always there.
i love You, Jesus.
lead me, guide me, teach me.
stop seeking man, but seek You, O Lord.
i've nothing more than all You offer me.
independent but dependent on You.
proverbs3:5-6.
God, its all in my heart. (:
i need You in every little things.
You know every single things inside of me,
how i feel, how i think.
even before i speak a word,
You know wad i wanna say.
O God,
i just wanna tell You,
i love You,
i have to depend on You,
i wanna depend on You.
You know my desires,
You know wad's best for me.
thanks for encouraging me today, in sucha special way.
thanks for teaching me so much through the show.
all i need is You to be my encourager, comforter. (:
i know its a random post, with so many random short messages.
hah.
just everything tt comes to me mind here and then,
didnt know how to fully express out.
but i know God know how to play with this puzzle. (:
my God is loving, awesome, graceful, merciful.
i love Him. and nothing gonna change that!
it's photos time, baby!
on my birthday ..
fish&co at the glass house! yummy!(((:
im seriously embarrassed. =X
ohya! kelly bok saboed me. told the lady im 71 years old. & i really have got 7 big candles, 1 small.
i love this! it's so nice and sweet! hahaha. <3>
this is the surprise irritant, i suppose? haha. from darl! (((: thanks!
okay. finally back to blog a proper post. steamboat again for dinner. i don't like. haha. throughout the whole dinner, i like only eating dumplings and vegetables. lolls. healthy right? lolls. it was ytd den i realised i so long never see my relatives, cos they were all so shocked with my coloured hair. haha. the only one in the cousin who have coloured hair too. =X im still guai alright. lols. met with kuku earlier to go buy tickets. im like bored at the house alr. hah. bought ben&jerry to eat. szeting dar came later, followed by evan darl and xiaobai. bro & cousins were in the same cinema too. but we're miles apart, two ends. hah. whatever. watched kung fu dunk. i think the coach is soooooooo shuai! haha. manly. im like mesmerized by him lah. tho he's like a drunkard or stuff. lolls. keep telling darl, dar and kuku he very cool very cool. i think they're irritated. hah. walked home after that, night breeze is cooling! =D alright, i've got so much things to prepare for the portfolio. lalas. sad thing, i can only get my achievements certs etc on monday when i go back fuhua. lalas. gotta get everything done by sunday, so monday won't be rush. (: i dun wanna last min work. haha. wanna do a nice portfolio but.. i dunno how to start. =( gonna give my best shot! haha God, i need Your help. WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT AND PRAYERS ARE GREATLY APPRECIATED! (:
my birthday.
woke up at 8.25am, needa meet jeremy at 840am. haha. but know wad, when i reached the bus stop, he just woke up. so he rushed and ran over. lolls. okay, i think he's cute luh! run here and there. haha. darl came over. slacked and rot. and yea, dar sze ting lied to me too! saying she's having lecture and stuff, but den ended up at my doorstep with diona ah ma! lolls. im like bathing then. it was indeed a surprise lah. cute chocolate cake. haha. ((: thanks girls! you guys are sweet!
went back to fuhua. met yiqi lao gong at bus stop and grace mummy at cu. ate there, and talk talk. i thought how come music room is like dark, wondering if nobody open the door or such, ended up there's another surprise. scare me lah! anyway, thanks too! i know im poor at cutting cake lah. haha. thanks baohui girlfriend and yiqi lao gong for the presents! & of cos the effort for the card! its sweets!
i miss dancing seriously. Mr.Q, we danced for a while. haha. will we have a chance to be really dancing with life again, girls? let's find a day and go back, dance like we never dance before alright? (:
rushed home. vicky and her family was at my house. gosh, baby weisheng is sooooooooo cute! i love him lah. hahaha. changed and headed to douby ghaut. im sorry for being the lastest. =X irritant surprise uh. haha. its cute lah! lolls. ate at fish & co at the glass house. i love the atmosphere. the food is nice! first time i ate fish and chip by my own. cos i dun like fish. haha.
ohya, there were darl, kuku, jazreel, weiru, yaxin, kelly, xiaobai and pingleh. (((((: weiru look so cool and shuai can? hahaha. cant take my eyes off her lah. lolls. =X
and im so so damn pai sey when the cake come. gotta wear tt hat and such. lalas. but the cake is nice! chocolate and cookies&cream ice cream cake! thanks baby! she spent so much effort planning and doing everything on my birthday lah. so sweet of her right? lolls.
have got a few photos. will upload it sometimes later! (:
and it comes darl's and dar's birthday. (: HAPPY BIRHTDAY EVAN DARL & SZE TING DAR! LOVE YOU GUYS!
pretty simple. girl, im sorry, i felt like i didnt spend as much effort as you spent on mine.
lunch with baby and calista at bugis, the dunno wad pasta or whatever restuarant. we designed our own pasta! haha. okay lah. initially wanna go indulgez, but not open. hrmm. something went wrong, and darl was fuming. situation was awkward, and i didnt know how to react at all. baby, chill alright? went to walk around bugis and each of us bought something. haha. chatted with calista's cousin a while. she's friendly!
headed to ah ma house for reunion dinner. texting throughout the journey. lolls. and and, suddenly, phone sounded. expected it to be kuku or darl, but the name is NGEEANNPOLY. which means, im shortlisted for the interview!!! ((((((: one last step to get into mass comm. hahahah. God, YOU ARE AWESOME! PRAISE BE TO HIM! (: ohya, shortly after, i received msg from atiqa sweety! she applied for JPSAE too, and she is short listed too! so cool right? haha.
just checked. my interview time is on monday, 5pm. guys, please pray for me alright? i really need prayers. ((((: you're greatly appreciated!
bring me through this.
i need You with me.
i need to hear from You.
without You, im lost.
i will praise You with all my life.
God, You're awesome,
You're beautiful.
nothing in this world can be compare to You.
My super Jesus.
i hate myself for being such a bad person.
whatever.
hidden within.
alright, today's gonna be my day. (((((: better not have anyone to piss me off, else i will roar. hahaha.
can't wait for wad's going to happen in the night. ((((: no morning and afternoon, cos i will be rotting at home! hahaha.
will blog wad happen on my big day! =D
okay, tml is combined service at jurong east complex. (((: haha. church is too small to accomdate 2 services. but that's a good thing alright? there will definitely be a day when jurong east complex is too small too! hahaha. just wait and see. (((:
now is THANK YOU time! (((:
Gideon, thanks so much for being so encouraging. especially that time after dinner. i won't forget you asked me to go try for mass communication through JPSAE, and that if i need any help, you'll support me all the way. ((: seriously, im touched and very very encouraged lah! you won't know how encouraged and motivated i am! hahaha. =D and you agreed so readily just now when i asked of you to help me write testimonial. im so glad can! & like wad i always said, you've been a blessing in my life and i appreciate you alot! ((: really thank God for you! thanks!=D
Mu en, though i know he can't possibly drop by here. but still i got to say, THANK YOU. haha. called him up just now to ask about tomorrow. and he agreed to like let me learn some of the media thing. or should i just say, he said i can follow him around, like his personal assitant. hahaha. so nice of him right? yea. and im like gng jurong east complex at 12pm. hahaha. hopefully i can learn more and more things, and i believe it gonna help! thanks brother! (:
never forgetting ..
weiqiang, thanks so much for your help and such. haha. im the first person you met since u check out from camp. lolls. but i seriously appreciate your help luh. without your help, i think i can only sit there and cry, not knowing wad to do. and the upcoming portforlio, i need your help big time too! i dunno how to say, but im really touched by your willingness to help me, and your confidence of getting me in. you're soooo nice! i will do my best if i get short listed! really thank God, for reminding me to call you and ask. gosh, how great is our God. haha. thanks so much! see you soon! ((:
eveline, yes, sister eveline. you words at the coffee shop really encouraged. just a moment ago, im discouraged, but your words are comforting. yes, i believe it's not the end. God definitely wanna me learn something through all these. i will fight, until im beaten flat. i will trust in Him, for He knows what's the best for me. thanks so much uh. ((((: you've been a blessing in my life too! =D
andrew, thanks for the help you offer. for making out 22mins out of your studying time to assist me with the courses. haha. its late, and i supposed everyone's asleep, untill you msged me then i know i've got someone to seek help from! lolls. (((: you've really been encouraging too, with the quiet time that you shared and such. offering help and a listening ear always! you're sooo nice! i really thank God for you! you're like so fatherly luh! lolls. really appreciate you lots! (: seeya, dru!
calista. how can i ever forget about you uh. hahaha. you're one girl who seen most of my tears lah. but you never fail to be there, encouraging. (((: yes, my result wasn't ideal enough to get into the ideal course, but you're always there encouraging me to fight for it and never give up. you always shared your thoughts which encouraged me alot. like, you said you feel that, the more obstables it is, the more God wanna you to get in. ((((: whatever is the case, i will still praise God uh. there's always something for us to learnt behind every incident. (: enjoy talking to you, crapping too. & where's our crazy laughter? hahaah. you've definitely been a blessing too! love you, girl!
evangeline. hahhaa. are you waiting for your name? lolls. okay. all these while you've stand by me. (: been so disappointed in my result that i cant get into mass comm. but still, you encouraged. and you know wad, God actually speak to me through you alot of times! hahaha. i thought i lost all hope in getting into M.C, but you suddenly called me up to tell me actually i can go in through JPSAE. it's definitely not by chance, i believe. and you said you felt that God wanted me to learn something, that is to put effort and work hard. haha. i got it, not to be a slacker like sec sch right? haha. i will definitely work hard if i get into mass comm! ((: any other course too, of course! thanks so much, girl. (: you're a blessing too, for sure. (: hahaha! loves!
alright, my shoulder is like aching now again. =(
nevertheless, still i've got to thank
pastor daniel, brother rixiang and sister diana - for helping me with the courses! you're always so nice! haha. pastor said im a confused girl. =X
xavier - who encouraged me alot through msn too! it's nice talking to you. and if i didnt remember wrongly, he gave me a verse too! (: appreciated, brother!
gektheng - thanks for going with me to school for two days to get testimonials. (((: you're my beloved baby! hahaha. ohya, still remember history maker? lolls. i love you!
mr chia & mr teo - thanks so much for being so willing to help me with the testimonials. i believe they will be of great help! hahahaha.(:
alright, i guess some might be wondering, why am i posting all these when im not confirmed posted into mass commm yet. but well, i don't have to wait till i get inside successfully to thank people uh. hahaha. ((:
i believe God is really teaching me how to stop being a slacker, how to really trust in Him, and taking up godly confidence. (((:
yes God, i will trust in You in every of my days.
i will rejoice in You and praise You wherever i go.
for Your love is better than life (((:
any name that i've not mention, but encouraged me and such, pardon me.
i've a mind block one. due to the headache since yesterday.
tell me alright, if you're the one. hahaha. ((:
&& never forgetting kuku and the gang who is always there! weiru cousin too! loves!
take care, people!(:
alright, come to think of it.
ever since i submitted JAE and JPSAE choices, i hasn't been having worries and such. which is, a good thing, perhaps. (((: no more because of all these become down and such. haha.
really look forward to the whole of next week. yes, the start of the week is my big day. and wed is my two dardar's and darldarl's birthday. and the 4 ending days of next week is the exciting part, to know if im short-listed. ((: alright,
God i'll still put all my trust in You. You take control and no one else. REJOICE!
"but seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you " - matthew 6:33
"trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths " - proverbs 3:5-6
with this two verses, God, its enough. (((: whatever the result is, i will strive for Your glory. still, i choose to trust in You. i don't believe all those signs and such are coincidence. and i dun believe in coincidence. (((: whatever it is, rejoice in the Lord!
Jesus is love! (:
alright, heard about the going sentosa thingy on monday. hah. is it a whole class thing? hrmmm. want to go, yet dun want to go. like very troublesome due to the things and such. needa bring extra clothes, etc. cos i've got a celebration at night! =D can't wait. (((:
ohya, thanks MR CHIA for all the effort of printing the testimonials for me twice. cos the first time, printed wrongly, dunno whose identification number is that. which means, i've got my testimonial before all the others! haha. and MR TEO is very nice too. so on and steady in helping me. ((: gonna get it from him next week! (: thanks!
i've yet to pack my room, and mum's like yelling and screaming all day long. hahaha. alright, i will get it done today!
ohya, formal or causal formal wear on monday uh ... hahaha. just nicer den what you normally wear. (((: dun kill me for being so troublesome. everyone gotta look good! =D i shall be the queen of the day! oh yea!