31 January, 2008
yes, 5 more days!! (((:
dunno how do i actually feel towards this day.. excited, yet scared.. cos memories of two years back can't stop flowing back. sad memories, memories that make me dread of this special day. i know whatever past has past. but .. haha. last year was pretty good too, except for the days before the actual day.
nevertheless, i believe this year will be a good one. it doesn't matter how many people are going to celebrate for me. it doesn't matter how many presents im going to receive.
one thing that i really wish, is to finish the cake bought by her, and thank her for everything. (:
two years back, the cake was left unnoticed, birthday song un-sang, and eventually the cake was thrown away without a single bite. for the whole week and the actual day, it's all about quarrels. this, im deeply upset whenever i thought of it.
mummy, im sorry. but i really do love you. (:
yes, definitely this year will be a good one. ((((: right people? with you guys, there's only laughter and joy. =D im excited. the fear and worries shall go away in no time. (:
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:50 PM :)
30 January, 2008
| What Renee Tan Hui Ting Means |
You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.
You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. |
being so interested in the name God has given me, and the name my parents have given me, i took this quiz too. from evan's blog! (:
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:39 PM :)
28 January, 2008
Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and lean not on your own understanding ;
in all your ways acknowledge Him,
and He shall direct your paths.
[proverbs 3:5-6]
God, i need to hear You.
assure me, guide me, help me.
send peace to guard my heart.
im lost.
| till death do us apart<3 | 7:51 AM :)
27 January, 2008
give me another sign, O Lord.
if You have given three,
i believe You'll show up. (:
im unsure,
i need to hear You,
i need Your assurance.
if it can happen for the name, Renee,
it can happen for this too.
i trust in You.
direct me, Jesus. (:
| till death do us apart<3 | 6:47 PM :)
23 January, 2008
[/edited]
weiru says:
((:
weiru says:
you're my most beloved cousin
weiru says:
of all times *:
weiru says:
(:
RENEE® says:
awww.. so heart-warming sia.
RENEE® says:
first time u said this to me. should have send this kinda msg to me in sms mah. den i will save it up
weiru says:
((:
weiru says:
somethings can be kept in the heart
weiru says:
its nearer that way
chatted with my beloved cousin online just now. what a sweet, nice sentence she said that touched the bottom of my heart. ((:
I LOVE YOU, WEIRU!
| till death do us apart<3 | 6:02 PM :)
like finally, tml gonna meet up with primary school peeps. to say, i really miss them alot! haha. sure got alot of catching up luh! tml is the day, people! gotta meet jiayi first to shop! cant wait. haha. (((:
called Mrs Kwek up just now. gosh, she kept her words. she's having a baby now! gonna give birth soon. haha. told her i will be there to visit her and her baby in hospital! lolls. so funny.
ohya, might be going back to corporation to be relief teacher. Mrs Kwek said she'll help me ask, most prob is okay. and im like gonna help her with her class i think? haha. funny. she said might need to TEACH english and maths. gosh. i duno how to. see how bah. gonna call her up on thurs.
hopefully everything will be okay, and able to be relief teacher in my mother school! (((:
but still, it seemed weird. hahaha.
thurs getting results. dunno wad kinda feeling i've now. lol.
i will still love You.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:47 PM :)
22 January, 2008
I am a part of the fellowship of the unashamed. I have Holy Spirit power. The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I'm a disciple of His. I won't look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still.
My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, my future is secure. I'm finished and done with low living, sight seeing, smooth knees, color-less dreams, tamed visions, mundane talking, "chinchy" giving and dwarfed goals.
I no longer need position, promotions, or popularity. I don't have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded or rewarded. I now live by presence, learn by faith, walk by patience, lift by prayer, and labor by power.
My face is set, my gait is fast, my destination is heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions few. My Guide reliable, my mission clear. I cannot be bought, compromised, detoured, lured away, turned back, deluded or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity.
I won't give up, shut up, let up, until I have stayed up, stored up, prayed up, paid up, and preached up for the cause of the One that gave me life, drew the line in blood for me in the hour of my destiny.
I am one of Christ's remnant people. I belong to Him and none other. All I do to bring this life to another is done because of that blood covenant poured out for me.
I must go till He comes, give till I drop, preach till all know, and work till He stops me. I must share with all that one more might hear and be drawn from the flaming darkness that longs to consume. Reach for another, touch but one more!
And when He comes for His own, He will have no problem recognizing me.
The above letter was written by a Pastor in Africa who was undergoing severe persecution. On the eve of his execution he sat down and wrote the above note.
got this from mich ng's blog. i think it's really very cool. (((:
&yes, i want Him to have no problem recognizing me too!
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:36 PM :)
photos on my beloved kuku's birthday! (((:
the group that went to sentosa! i supposed you guys know where is it taken. hah.
now at dian xiao er ..
my ever-so-shuai biao ge & the girl with the sweet voice, jazreel! (:
sze ting dardar and yiqi lao gong!(:
weiru is so satisfied with the food! hahaha. nice picture taken! (:
ya xin and me! she's so cool, right?(:
shifu! stop being so gay! evan don't even have the face to see! hahahah!
me with my dearest kuku! you know you're loved! (:
the other table! (((: didnt managed to take the group of my table.
now the birthday girl! chung pei hwa! ((((:
okay, i made a mistake in yesterday post. hahaha. emily and qizhen didnt go sentosa, they only joined us for dinner too! hahaha. ((((:
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:13 PM :)
21 January, 2008
mummy jus said me crazy for buying some drinks. hahaha. know what, i bought one whole long packet of yakult, one whole long packet of yakult acelight and one whole long packet of vitagen collagen. hahaha. which means, three long packets of healthy drinks! =D just saw it at seng siong, and took one of each kinds. hahahaha.
ohya, how can i ever forget about kuku's birthday yesterday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KUKU! I LOVE YOU! though one day belated in blog. hahaha.
had a hard time getting the card done initially. but all thanks to the aunty for the help still. hahaha. now i've 4 double-sided tape at home!!!! hahahaha.
okay, back to the point. went sentosa to find them pretty late.
nothing much. they played volleyball, captain ball den all slacked there. me, kuku, evan, pingleh went into the water. kinda cooling. hah. yiqi came over later. went to hug her with my wet body. hahahaha.
changed and all went to vivo, dian xiao er, to have dinner. and that's the only meal for my day. lolls. xiao bai and deanna joined us den. went to withdraw money while bumping into yaxin. haha. she's so cute luH! lolls. have dinner, and i must say our table is noisy. with all the craps coming out and certain words are disgusting. food was pretty nice uh.
went up to the top of vivo, the open space and slacked there. me, evan and sze ting went to buy bikini for yiqi. lolls. a present that we owed her for a long long long time. hope you like it girl! they played game and some sat there talking.
mood was pretty low? or rather emo'ing. haha. whatever. yiqi suggested to walk around and so just went with it. talked about certain stuffs and yep, not bad uh. (((: like what she said, short yet sweet! =D i love you, girl! no need much words for you to understand everything. meet up more often in the night uh. hahahaha. right atmosphere to talk! haha. (((:
went home after that. a nice pleasant day with the fun-loving clique!
sentosa peeps : kuku ; kelly ; pingleh ; emily ; qizhen ; catherine ; weiru ; jazreel ; sze ting ; evan ; yiqi ; me
dinner peeps : sentosa peeps + yaxin ; xiao bai ; deanna.
(((((:
had some photos taken. but at this moment no cable to upload. hahah. will try to get it done tomorrow!((:
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:00 PM :)
i've enough of hearing when results is coming out. lalas. false alarm here and there. forget it. not gonna care so much alr. be it tml, thurs or fri or whatever. lala.
im true, myself.
no pretence or anything.
i don't see a need for explanation.
if everyone stick to the past, the world would have stop moving.
| till death do us apart<3 | 9:13 AM :)
20 January, 2008
God, let me be more like You.
the way You think, the way You will react to circumstances.
all i need is You, Lord.
i came to realise alot these few days.
it's not getting anywhere.
it's getting too over, perhaps.
controlling mood & emotions,
but it seemed so hard to.
whatever.
stop this crap,
else i'll burst.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:44 PM :)
19 January, 2008
getting on my nerves.
never wanna shed a single tear for this again ..
don't give me a half-way thing.
i don't entertain that.
don't say i don't care.
just simply dunno what's wrong right from start.
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:52 PM :)
hrmm. went to ngee ann open house today with the girls. (: met kuku and the gang at canteen. ate and went to walked around. not a bad trip. (:
mass communication is interesting. and im like kinda stressed when touring around. lol! but its cool luh! haha. heard that if just got border line to get in hafta go through interview first. gosh. scary. lolls. but gotta see results first, still. lolls.
ohya, one thing that make me laugh is the stupid joke kelly, yaxin and qizhen played on the girl. she asked us for the name and kelly went by saying she's qizhen ; yaxin said she's qihui ; and qizhen said she's qiguai. lolls. and the girl was like, argh. hahaha. funny. bth. but it's definitely a nice tour with them around! =D
the dance competition in the evening is really cool. NRA is awesome luh! hopefully when we get into poly, they still wanna recuit people. i wil definitely join that! haha. =D the solo dance also will nice. think the dancers are really cool luh. any music on, they can jus follow the beat and dance. one day.. i will be like tt too! hahahaha. okay, perhaps im just dreaming. but seriously hoping can get into O school very soon. (: dream..
mummy brought me to a massage centre yesterday. wanna me to get a massage for my shoulder. very pain. haha. keep telling the person very pain very pain. and in the end, the person said she never use any strength at all. haha.
but know what, instead of getting better, now my shoulder kinda swallon. slightly touch also very pain. cannot carry bag or anything. argh. that's really terrible. sleep also very xinku. and mummy said next week go back again. gosh. save me man.
heard from calista, its confirmed monday[21st] getting results. its on the news. gosh. hrmm. but perhaps its better now. instead of keep thinking each day. haha. whatever it is. wad will come, will come. so ... will be back to fuhua on monday! ((:
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:54 PM :)
16 January, 2008
i love to see a smile on Your face, O Lord.
though i couldn't see it,
but i could feel it.
for the joy of the Lord is my strength. (:
i love to know that You're amused,
with little things i do,
and words that i said,
like how a daddy would smile at his child. (:
i love it when You talk to me.
& its because i can't see You,
that makes the time with You even more precious.
i've made it a point,
daily quiet time with You is a must. (:
O God, its all about You.
<3
You're the Daddy, & im Your beloved child.
You're the King of kings, & im Your princess.
(:
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:52 PM :)
alright, didnt go work. hah. initially kinda regretted, cos im like so freaking bored luh! lolls.
slacked at home till ard 3pm plus? chatted with my dearest weiru biao ge and decided to drop by her workplace. ((:
she's like so nice today can. haha. treated my to a graph red tea, though is i asked her to. haha. and and, she let me try the caramel chocolate or something. its nice! =D ohya, one more thing, she treated me dinner! hahaha. thanks dearest! i'll treat you someday too! haha.
talked and chatted. her colleague used to work at LT zara too! and she's friendly. ohya, did i mention she scolded me stupid when i couldn't see the escalator? haha. im not stupid ok, just blur for a moment. hah. so i just sat there and talked with weiru, talked a little with the girl too! enjoyed alot! =D
ohya, im like so excited when i hear that she might be going ngee ann too! (((: oh baby, awesome! and hopefully jazreel too! i reckon all gonna be in different courses, but who cares luh! lolls. ohya, we gonna join the dunno wad cca ok? dunno outward bound or something. =D gonna be exciting! loveya cousin, and thanks for today! will drop by to see you very soon!
imagine i wanna join so many things when i go into ngee ann? haha. scuba diving with calista? dance? outward bound? lolls. scarly in the end i didnt go into np. scarly sp? jc? LOL. whatever luh. see results first. but there's no confirmation of when results are coming out yet. & i still looking forward to my O school. will get in the next course. i want!
God, i need Your direction!
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:44 PM :)
15 January, 2008
alright. have the tagboard up after dunno how many years. (:
people requested and here is it.
and calista darling, i remember very clearly you said you will tag very very often. hahaha. i'll hold your words uh. ((:
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:14 PM :)
to think i think the way i did.
things aren't perfect and as beautiful as i think it would be.
but perhaps, it won't matter as time pass.
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:56 PM :)
14 January, 2008
You know im freaking scare of boredom,
yet You're now putting me through the days.
to build me up to be more independent,
but more dependent on You. (:
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:26 PM :)
13 January, 2008
Dear Jesus,
thanks for Your company today. even when the people around me are packed with activities, You're always with me, available for me & just waiting for me to seek You. i sincerely thank You for that. (: and of cos, i thank You for the people You put in my life. (:
You put me through alot of things in the year of 2007. i fell badly, but You're always ready to embrace me. and i know that it does break Your heart when im broken. because You love me so. You drew me back at the last moment, and i knew it's not just any other moment, but there's a reason.
although i turned my back on You for almost the whole of 2007, You still showed Yourself to me when i came running back to You. in fact, much more than ever. and when Your tangible presence fall upon me, i cant help but bow down, yearning to know You more. You're too great to be true. You never fail to show up whenever i cried out to You. i love You, Lord.
too many things to talk to You about. everyday spending time with You is definitely a must. no compromise from now on. & Lord, forgive me for anything that You're not pleased with me. (:
In Jesus name,
AMEN.
Love, Renee.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:28 PM :)
12 January, 2008
be my encourager & comforter, O Lord.
let there be no fear,
and take whatever that's not right away.
let me feel the way i should.
thank You, Lord.
my Jesus is better than anything in this world.
He loves me, I love Him,
so i give Him everything. <333!
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:35 PM :)
11 January, 2008
thoughts of receiving O's results keep coming to me ever since i got to know of the date. be it 18jan, 21jan or 28jan, it don't matter. cos only a few days between each other. rahs.
okay. im like thinking of all possibilities of how will it be like.
nevertheless, there's this little voice, or hope telling me,
TRUST GOD. (((((:
with my own strength, i can do nothing. but with His, i can do things that no one can imagine. (:
i prayed when studying. i prayed during the exam. i prayed before starting the paper. i studies, unlike other times. & i put all my trust in God.
and now its over for more than a month, there's nothing i can do.
hah.
God, take away all the fear, doubts and worries.
i know i've did it in Your strength, i've ask for Your wisdom.
assure me, O Lord.
teach me how to trust in You.
& i know this is the time.
God, i dun wanna have doubts, i dun wanna worry.
for You say,
do not worry. "seek first the kingdom of God and HIs righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you." matthew 6:33
even though i may not be righteous, i may not be sin-less,
but God, You're graceful, merciful, and loving enough to forgive me. (:
i know i need You, like everyone else.
be it good or bad, i will praise You.
for i know, everything have got its reason.
i will go where You send me.
nothing else is as important as Your work, Your glory.
its You that matters. (:
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:25 PM :)
09 January, 2008
wasted day? sadded. mummy is so willing to buy clothes and such for me today. but i didnt see anything that really captured my attention. i seriously like the whole set of the cool outfit man. but . argh. its okay.
wanted to buy shorts, shirts, dresses etc. wanted to buy wallet, bag etc. alot of things on my mind. hah. okok. i think i needa stop being so materialistic.
for God say, no one can serve two master. (:
lost the flower halter shirt that mummy gave me. :( wanted to wear today but can't find. lalas.
even when i fail You, i know You love me.
everyone will change, but not You.
&when all else fails, You're still there. (:
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:59 PM :)
08 January, 2008
Because when nobody understands me, You do.
Because when nobody knows how it feels, You do.
Because when nobody remembers me, You do.
You know the inside out of me.
You love me even when i fail You.
You embrace me even when i hurt You.
there's none other like You. <3
&because You're merciful, graceful, patient and loving,
that's why i live. ((((:
Jesus, i love. <333!
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:43 PM :)
04 January, 2008
it has been some time since i last blogged. hah.
recently kinda got memorable happenings. but too tired to blog about it each day. hah. pardon me. working is tiring uh. lol.
from what i can remember ..
31st dec'07.
calista darling's birthday. with a group of ppl, we gave her a white guitar for birthday present. went to watch fireworks with evan darl, yiqi lao gong and karen meimei. alot alot of people. saw ppl like eddy and gang, weekiat and his friends and blah blah. walked a short route, but took long time before getting on the night bus. hah. and its ex. rahs.
1st Jan'08.
morning shift for work. time passed fasttt. hah. awesome. lunch break alone. but didnt eat. talked awhile with baby before chatting with kuku. so long never see baby alr. haha. hopefully this sat she'll be dancing. cos i'll be back. (: my nicest dearest kuku came over to wheelock to find me after work. (((: haha. dinner at ajisen. YAYS! satisfaction. haha. and kuku just keep saying me la. lolls.
" ta xi huan wo de ben ". lolls.
2nd Jan'08
shipment today. reached zara at 8am. yawns. a break at 9am. and i got sooooo emo early morning. cried over the phone. you know who you are. haha. i think im like so stupid. okay. and for the whole day. the time is like crawling. mood was down and such. lalas. calista called me after work. went over to marina to meet her. will be waitin for evan to knock off. ate at burger king and xav came over later. shopped for shirts and we saw one. something like, "always late but worth the wait". hah. i think we are v suitable for these kinda shirts. xav ate at subway and went river after that. slacked a while, all went home and i went to find evan. chilled out a while and bus-ed home. if only there's more breeze. hah.
3rd Jan'08.
today! or maybe yesterday. im officially freed from zara. hah. ok. dun wanna elaborate on that anymore. nydc is nice. (: ohya, i love the sleeping time. was kinda dead that i keep sleeping and sleeping.ever since started work in zara, has been kinda lack of sleep. haha.
i wanna make new specs. but dad dun seemed to be willing to sponser me. =( hah.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:45 PM :)
that's my dearest NICOLEdeardear aka miss lil tardy. loves! (:
with akmal. ((: first time take with him! 
baby ; miss lee ; me! ((:
miss haiza! (((: she's sweet!
miss chan herself initiate to keep taking photos. & she came up with all the posts. hah.
how can i forget about MrChia? hah. i love him! ((:
wanzi darling and gene-bro! they're loved! (:
