tried to be strong, tried to held back the tears.
on the bus back and fro from maths tuition, silence filled the atmosphere.
my mind went wild, my heart is burdened. i hate this feeling.
i feel like saying out, but im afraid to.
my words, actions, everything, are too hurting.
im sorry, being in a lost of what to do to ease the impact i caused.
im feeling so terrible, so useless, so everything.
i couldn't get over last night. i keep pondering.
i didnt know, and i dunno why im just so affected.
MrHeng's first words to me " are you okay? ". i was pretty shocked. dun i look okay? i've been trying to push everything to the bottom. and each time the thoughts, the feelings surfaced up, i pushed it down. continuously, repeatedly. tuition was okay. headed home after that, and here im.
wasn't here. can't hear. no nothing.
all i need.