29 June, 2007
and yea, tml is once day FRIDAY.
i think i'll be looking forward to friday so much every week. lolls. (((:
hrmm. Os chinese oral next wed. sians.
alright, today kena tricked by atiqa. guess wad. she say drink too much green tea will get high. dunno why, im like so convinced. lolls. and i actually believe her! gosh. and i ask her why. den she say joking only. duh. hahaha. girl, you watch out! LOL! loves!
kinda suddenly miss mr ng alot. haha. i know im crazy. but he jus come to my mind. and i remember him telling me TRUST&FAITH in Jesus. its like so funny that i actually went to find him during the period of time when im spiritually low last year. hahaha. thanks so much. you do help! really thanks. i wonder when den can meet with you. lolls. i will remember a meal with you. (((((:
thanks for the words, the advices and everything. i appreciate it.
i dun feel like doing any work today. blah.
& i feel so much like crying now. sighs.
| till death do us apart<3 | 12:25 PM :)
28 June, 2007
and just for that little of mine, You blessed my family with so much more.
thanks Jesus. (((:
and i know that one thing never change. (:
went over to darl's house on monday night. surprisingly i can go ah, though mummy not happy. but well, i need help in doing the testimony thing. if it wasnt for her, i bet i would haf alr spent 2 times of the time i spent on it. blah. thanks darldarl! <3>
alright, i know i wasted the one month holiday jus like that. homework like never touch, slack throughout and now gotta rush all the homework within 2-3 days.
slept at 2am. so long so long didnt slp outside, as in not at my own home. was kinda so tired, so fall aslp quite fast. ohya, the breakfast is nice!!!
and haha. i remember she got it right. colleen actually hinting something dirty online. hahaha! but, hrmm, i dun understand wad you saying, coll. and you never wanna explain. haha. nvm. blah! ((:
how i wish if mummy will allow me to stay out now and then. hahaha. but tt seemed kinda impossible. after Os, HOPEFULLY. heh. ((: and i gonna haf lotsa fun outside, i believe. bleah.
i was like so so so tired yesterday that the last 3 periods i keep dozing off. =X 2 periods of math and 1 period of english. haha. nothing much. the first " extra lesson " = maths. do e maths paper 1. still okay la. time passed kinda fast. thank God. supposingly got tution, but cancelled. reached home kinda pretty late, and slept before starting to do my work.
colleen asked me to call her cos she can't slp. was like okay since im jus copying my chem. hahaha. no need much concentration. =X peihwa joined in shortly after that. alright, kinda a short chat as compared with last time. and ohwells, IM PURE INNOCENT okay? lolls. evan, peihwa and the others can testify! hahaha. no bedtime stories from me, unless you wana ans chem qns. lolls. u can ask evan for stories! opps. and i said something wrong, didnt go kbox before. blah. dun force me okay, i'll be pai sey. ((:
lesson today okay. most of the holiday homework done. left english compo. blah. ss remedial time passed fast! almost no time to finsih up my work. haha. but i did. ((: went to dance after that. only the sec1s were there. okay la, at first was kinda weird untill yiqi, baohui, karen, xinying, junjie and xinyan come up. baby came up after her work. slack slack for a while and headed jec.
ate at kobayashi with baby. xinying, xinyan and yiqi went kopitiam or dunno where to eat. but all in the same building. haahha. coincidentally saw kelly. banged her and haha! okay, i noe im crazy. ate very very slowly, ohwells, was talking and eating at the same time okay. stayed there untill 6pm plus, went to take baby's specs and headed home. saw kuku at the interchange too! lolls. ask me go home do homework. rrraaahhh. haha. surf's up ehh. how is it? nice? lolls.
right now, slack abit. later gng to do work again. tired tired. i always hate the first week of sch, cos i know sure alot of things to do cos i dun do holiday homework. hahahaha!
looking alot alot alot to weekends and monday. we gonna haf fun ehh, people? loves loves loves!!! (((((((((((:
and i jus hope with all these months of extra lessons and tutions, things will turn around.
and still, i need discipline. hahaha!
every every day, stomach sure pain. stupid. blah. without fail. wad's wrong man.
nothing much. update again very soon. heh. ((:
jiayous ppl. (:
| till death do us apart<3 | 12:14 PM :)
25 June, 2007
things wasn't falling in the right place that it should be. i wasn't feeling the right way that i should be now. and what i wanted most at that time i didnt get it, yet after everything den it come back. playing a trick on me? blah. give me a break. i want no more shifting. i'll get tired of these stuffs, so please, dun do this to me. i cant take it. and i know something i do envy, ohwells, take all of that aside. i want none of it.
a thought jus come to my mind jus now mid-day.
why that we are so unworthy yet Jesus choose to die for us? yes i know its all for LOVE. God did so much jus to win our hearts, did so much so that we know that He is real. & even if we break His heart again & again, He chose to forgive us. even if we're taking His love, grace & mercy for granted, He chose to love us still with His undying, unfailing love. He gives us eternal life, so that after the life here, we can enjoy ourselves in our true home, praise & worshipping Him all day. why is there such a good Daddy waiting for us?
and i remember once pastor told me before,
what i experienced of Him is jus that little bit. if i really experienced Him big time, it will seemed like i need no one else, just Him alone and alone. He'll be all i ever need.
((: i've got sucha wonderful&loving Daddy. yes i love You still.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:33 PM :)
tml sch's reopening! sians sians and thousand of sians.
i dun like, im not happy.
blah!
homework is still as jialat. ohwells, prepare to get scoldings after scoldings.
cant believe im jus THAT slack man.
what the hell m i doing?
haha.
supposingly wanna go holland v to eat ice cream jus now.
but ended up at eunos. so wonderful right?
hahaha. and we got to know that we took the wrong direction of the bus. rrrraaahhhh!
we spent our time "meaningfully", girl. LOL!
i cant believe we jus that dumb. hahahaha.
ohwells, dun be heartbroken.
shut your eye and only believe wad u hear. haha.
i know, IRONY ; CONTRADICTING. hahaha.
blah!
taken while im on the bus while grace mummy yesterday! ((:
off to continue slacking, or mayb im guai enough to jus do my work? hahaha. who knows.
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:39 PM :)
24 June, 2007
details for the yesterday & today. ((:
had dance in the morning. hrmm.. one thing was exposed within the clique in dance. ohwells, i think this is the better way out. at least every one feel comfortable now. no more of the uncertainity. ((: i love you dancers! <3
kinda a dance outing to ice-skating after dance practice. i din go, my day is booked alr. haha. sorry guys. darldarl come over to my house. done the book and slack. was kinda tired and stomach is giving me trouble. mummy asked me to help her with the housechores. sighs. sians. doen everything and slept. darl was using the com throughout i guess? ohwells, im semi-conscious.
bear bear uncle and a few more come over for dinner. mummy cooked alot of dishes. we ate a little too. someone keep praising my mum's cooking! heh. come over for dinner often den, we dun mind. (((: no need paisey. someone broke my heart by saying a sentence. blah. nvm, i will prove u wrong, next time perhaps. hahahaha. headed to clarke quay after that. hrmm. PASTA! yummy! i love the atmosphere and the food. blah! loves loves loves! ice-cream after pasta. COOL. the doorguard allows us to go in. hahaha. first step into a club. stay a while den went off le. home sweet home after that. ((:
went out with khai loon 女人 & grace mummy to bukit timah area one of the cafe. i dunno wad's the name. thanks for bringing me there! ((: so long since i last went out with them. not bad. crap and laugh. i noe im lame and abit mental-case today. hahaha. u know gng crazy is my LOVE! (((: went arena with mummy and darldarl, played pool. time passed very fast. i didnt play enough! rrraaahhhh! thanks for today peeps! haha.
cabbed with grace mummy to ahma's house. i thought i was late. but im the first. after round & round of turning, we finally reach the restuarant. a whole big group of family. eat eat, im very full! i love going to sit beside ahma, different table. haha. dunno why either. didnt talk much, but jus love it. oh oh i know why. COS I LOVE MY GRANDMA! <3
was talking about clubbing with my pretty aunty, her husband and another aunty. fun chat man. hahaha. they were kinda " supportive " ? hahahha. i dunno. i say mummy dun allow me to go. den my pretty aunty was like sayin even if i go they also wun know la. haha. her husband added that i go i tell them is my own fault. haha. my fault? oh wells, im being guai okay? hahaha. then they started " teaching " me all the clubbin thingy. hahaha. nice chat with them, really. ((((((((((: and when i started chatting with them, i feel like an adult within them! hahahaa.
dad can't wait to marry me off. cos im a big spender in the family. we were talking about this after that. everyone keep laughing. grandma says getting $50 from dad is not alot, not as if $500. in my family, im the one who spend most. in my jensen's family, he is the one who spent most and in weisong's family, jesslyn is the one who spent most. hahahaha! each family got one each. blah! den my pretty aunty say me and jesslyn 2 years difference only yet we look different. hahaa.
i love today. time spent with my girls and time spent with my family!
i've fun, i enjoyed! ((((((((((:
mummy came into my room when i was out. she noticed the pear liquour in my room. heard from her that she drink a bit and cannot take it liao. hahaha. funny. and she even says next time dk come back mus buy 2 more bottles for her, since that time she treat him bbq. blah. mummy is so lame. hahaha. and she even ask me to make one vodka for my another grandma who is coming from malaysia tml. i was like HUH? lolls. i bet she will drop dead man. stop kidding me. HAHAHAHAH!
ohya, because of a stroke dad is so gek. hahahahahaha. ohwells. and im their lucky girl. give me a share! i demand for a bigger one! hahaahahaha.
sch's gng to reopen soon. sians sians sians. my homework is still very jia lat. blah. hopeless, yes i know that. the thought of sch reopening gives me a feeling of "fear" or should i say insecurity? wadeva. time passed so fast. i dun like.
i'll be waiting for it, though i not sure if its really possible i'll get it.
if you get wad i mean.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:48 PM :)
23 June, 2007
im emo again. yes, indeed im. got no mood to do anything. i jus wanna sleep, so that my mind wun went whirl. but i couldn't. im always sub-conscious. i feel like crying, tears is on the verge of dropping. i dunno why. i dunno why im pissed. i dunno why im feeling all these. my stomach is worse. it hasn't been okay since the start of today. damnit. tell me what m i suppose to do now, wad can i do now?
| till death do us apart<3 | 7:45 AM :)
20 June, 2007
been out for two full days. (((:
yiqi laogong came over to my house to print something. played with the guitar for a while, headed to west mall mac to eat lunch. met with baohui and headed to home team to swim. (((:
nice time with my two girls. i had fun. haha. stop scaring me okay, i got phobia. hahahah! u guys get wad i mean. blah. go out swim again soon! love you guys big big time! <3
supposingly is meeting kuku, kelly, xiaobai and deanna to watch movie. hrmm. but darl's mum dun allow, so we went to do homework instead. surprisingly i got a little mood to do. haha. after the movie, they came to mos to find us. crap crap blah blah. lolls. was like so damn tired, so stop doing. 10pm plus, home sweet home.
met with evan darldarl, szeting dardar, yiqi lao gong, grace mummy, laytheng nan peng you at je in the morning. opps, im sorry to be the last one. haha. headed to harbourfront. baby came to meet us at vivo after that. went sentosa. hot hot weather, nice nice breeze. ((:
sat there, playing guitar, crapping. rrraaahhhh. i enjoyed it. i've fun, really! thanks girls! <3<3>
darldarl and dardar bully me!! not once only, okay? haha. but still, i love it when the both of you reacted when i jus say one name but different spelling. i also dunno who i calling, but i jus wanna see and i planned for it so long and today it happened! heh. FUN FUN FUN! ((((((: play again someday hor? hahaha. I LOVE BOTH OF YOU SO SO SO MUCH CAN? trust me when i say that. HAHAHAHAHA
some photos taken:
heh. baby, szeting dardar & yiqi lao gong. sweets! ((:
the group photo. (((((: everyone present.
szeting dardar and evan darldarl is trying to box me. EVIDENCE! they bully me. loves!
with my beloved lao gong! i love you alright? mark my words! HAHAHAHA!
with dardar!!! (((: ain't she cute? heh.
now with darldarl. wind blow so strong!!! rrraaahhhh!
grace mummy, baby and lay theng nan peng you!!! humph, they dun wan take with me, but they take with baby! im jealous! hahahahhaa.
me with baby! she looks nice with the cap!!! CUTIE! loveya girl! <3
three dancers together! muacks! <3>
baby & qiqi lao gong. sweets sweets and sweets! loveya girls big time! <3
me & baby again. we gonna make the history. remember? muacks! (((:
last photo updated. three of us again. ((((: loves!
okay, words can't express, can't describe. i jus love all these peeps to bits. i mean SERIOUS. they make a difference in my life. never be forgotten. (((((: you guys rock my life!!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!!! dun doubt okay? hahahaha. MUACKS! thanks for today, people. i enjoyed. looking forward to more of these times with you all. and i believe there is more of these times to come right? hahahahahahahah. take lotsa care!!! ((((:
im tired. nights people. ((:
12:3
loves!
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:55 PM :)
17 June, 2007
alright, shall blog about yesterday first.
a short period of time at home before meeting dekkai.
sweets! ((:
and was late in meeting him. opps, sorry for making you wait SO long.
he changed alot, but do crap alot too. ((: fun.
dk and van went to my aunt's condo for my family bbq with me.
alright, half of the time like only both of them talking to each other.
i was walking around, mixing with my cousins they all too.
managed to take some photos with the 2 peeps. both quite on too! hahaha.
can you spot dekkai? oh my gosh! i think he looks like a ghost!!
the pear vodka which he brought. ((: nice!
the three of us with the vodka!! hahahahhaha.
evan started emo'ing liao. hahaha. deep in thoughts ...
ohoh. no misunderstanding. haha. we jus take sip of the vodka. HAHA! its kinda like a photo night. took quite a no. of pics, but too lazy to post more. hahahaha. there are really nice one okay? but too bad, IM LAZY.
slept too late last night, and woke up only at 1pm today.
met evan and dk for lunch, and headed to bt there to play pool with joey also, just for a while.
and we went separate ways after that.
hrmm, he is going back tml. sadded. im looking forward to your next return! heh. ((:
and once again my emotions swapped me away.
total down and no mood for a single thing.
a fake smile, just to hope things get better.
thoughts come and go,
so much words of feelings unspeakable.
and it sucks. oh man, it really does.
continued by, emotions get so mixed up over smal little things.
why do i always let emotions get the better of me?
it seemed so helpless, i can't control,
yet i know i got to learn to.
teach me how to?
sometimes i dunno why i feel this way either.
i dun want to, and i know i shouldn't be.
blah.
its all about feelings and emotions AGAIN.
give me a break.
supposingly today is LMD. ohwells, change of date.
and i can use today to do homework, hopefully i really do make full use of the time.
give me the discipline.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:20 PM :)
15 June, 2007
alright, jus a short one.
jus one before i leaving me computer OFF for now.
spent about an hour or two reading someone's history.
nice nice. i bet i'll never be sick of reading.
happy, crazy, sad, sweet, heart-warming, melting ..
blah blah. all sort of emotions while reading.
there are a few which i simply love, and was touched to the bottom. (((((:
and yes,
im still missing those sentences and words.
those times and blah!.
certain sentences, come to think of it,
it pierced. :(
and i got to understand.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:35 AM :)
back here after some time.
quite a number of things happened within these few days.
but i couldn't remember much alr.
too lazy to blog on the exact day .. so .. heh.
alright. went swimming with bao hui on monday. and den went with darl on tues. (((:
i had fun on both days. and i managed to get tanned, mayb slightly? hahahah!
still gotta see when free den ask u guys out again, ok? muacks! <3
yesterday went for the badminton chalet. (((((:
supposingly im the only one non-badminton. but i've fun too!
spent almost 3 hours playing guitar with evan, sze ting and calista. HAHA! and its at "outdoor". we were sun-tanning at the same time. nice nice hot hot weather!
bbq started at about 7pm? was kinda full after eating 3 crabsticks. haha. dunno why either.
and ohya, i like the vodka. lemon is nice! heh. (((((: couldn't drink much though, cos kelly and kuku dun allow.
and hrmm. didnt managed to play my passing game. hahahaha. i want to see emily high! ahahah.
time passed very fast. i dun wish to go home. rrraahhhh.
evan and me went off at 10pm plus? cos we couldn't stay overnight. sadded.
the rest is still there. HAVE FUN PPL! ((((:
anyway, i love my girls!! <3<3<3
today gonna stay at home, supposingly.
homework homework and still homework. sians.
got tons loads of things that i wanna buy!!
where's the money?
and i should say its alright. it isn't my rights anyway.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:49 AM :)
12 June, 2007
what a bad night.
turn here and there, sit up, lie down,
finally managed to drift into lalaland at 5am,
and i woke up at 9am. crapps.
couldnt forget.
duno why, it just sounded so scary.
and yes, i got a fright.
sighs. its alright.
get it out of my mind !!
and i wonder over and over again.
is that really possible?
sighs. doubts? blah. get out.
another day at home. how sians can it be?
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:34 AM :)
11 June, 2007
and thinking back.
i've been doing all the craps,
causing so much unhappiness.
im sorry.
won't haf any more second times.
alot of misses.
feeling so damn shitty.
tears falling.
| till death do us apart<3 | 10:59 AM :)
a whole day at home once again.
alright, i noe im out til late late these 2 days. ((:
but i enjoyed okay? blah!
alright, squash was fun!
im getting to like it more and more! (((:
its a good exercise to vent anger too. HAHA!
nice day at vivo. " learnt " alot of things ah.
ohwells, im STILL as innocent as before. lolls.
and i hate the water sprinkler! blah!
the thought of it make me laugh.
OPEN OPEN OPEN OF US!
went bugis with evan, kuku and kelly.
not bad larhs. weather hot hot, dun like.
and its like ALWAYS, went out with kelly, sure kena shoot de.
haha. blah.
bought a white shirt, not bad ah. gonna wear it on that day. ((:
and its like after a year, FINALLY pierce earhole there. haha.
ohwells, i think im dumb, it wasn't that painful afterall. =X
i hate zodiac. CRAP!
gosh, pissed me off.
so long, so draggy, so WADEVA. almost fall aslp. haha.
no nothing after the show. pathetic us.
dunno wanna laugh or be angry.
and luckily daddy is good enough to drive us home! ((:
sorry for the scream. haha. but that was fun!
thanks for driving us home! sorry for the trouble! ((((:
ice-cream & pool someday. heh. dun forget!
<3<3
and when you came online and talked to me jus now.
i could feel the "emotions".
but still, not now. or perhaps, im not intending to for now.
im sorry. but still, i'll still be here.
thanks for the words. cheer up! ((:
i think my work is suffering big time.
=X
but fun is all im thinking now.
gosh, im in deep deep trouble.
my crown ear-stud. sighs. its gone. =((
is it low or high?
| till death do us apart<3 | 6:58 AM :)
08 June, 2007
thoughts and thoughts rush into my mind.
ohwells, i felt bad.
i dun want that feeling.
told you ROUGHLY wad is it,
but it jus couldnt fill the whole picture.
blah.
couldn't find the words, dunno how to express.
but do i seemed to be asking too much of you?
let this not be a burden to you, i dun wanna ask for anything.
rrraaahhhh! kinda like i dun even noe wad is it.
hrmm ..
a msg received from calista that kinda melt my heart.
surprising and shocking.
but yes, everything is alright, okay. ((:
thanks for the sms, girlie! <3
wonderful, sweet MMS received.
oh my gosh, every single word is the same!! (((((:
nth less, nth more.
touching touching!
(((((:
<3<3<3
and i thought the conversation will be a bad one.
but it turned out to be pretty calm and good.
thanks.
i appreciate everything, and i really mean everything. ((:
it does give me a sense of relief after the conver, really. thanks.
and the mushy part is really touching ah. HAHAHA!
i noe im honoured. (((:
a great and nice heart-to-heart talk with you. ((:
it has been such a long time i really meet you and we talked.
and yes, you know how confidential that is! i trust you. ((:
nevertheless, I LOVE YOU! haha. <3
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:49 PM :)
a pretty good way to start my day. ((:
maths lesson passed pretty fast. but was kinda distracted by stuff. blah.
in the middle of the lesson, receive a sms.
and yes, it got me distracted and kinda somehow deepen my mood.
tried to push it all aside and concentrate,
managed to do that, but time and times it keep coming back,
and the whole process repeated agn and agn.
sighs.
you never know how i feel or think,
or rather you never try to understand. i dunno.
whatever it is,
be it anything,
it dosen work on me anymore.
and when i myself say that sentence,
it reminds me of that time.
and i thought i'll be strong and let whatever is said be true,
but still, i failed.
and it ended up coming out from my own mouth.
ohwells, perhaps its true.
but it just give me a feeling so.
i dunno. too sensitive?
but for two times alr.
and dere is one who agrees with me.
blah.
but its alright, nvm.
i like gek theng's one sentence.
oh girl, i love you to bits! ((:
and the bugging begins?
renew my mind, my thinking, everything. ((:
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:26 AM :)
07 June, 2007
nth much today.
breakfast with kelly and kuku. ((:
was still slpg whn kelly msged me, but well, its really time to get up.
hahaha.
evan din manage to join us, gotta do maths thingy.
had the first maths tution with jeremiah.
not bad ahh, got learn something. heh.
time passed pretty fast, cool.
went to watch men in white with evan.
super lame,
and dere is one particular person laugh very exaggerating.
bth.
certain parts i laugh bcos of his/her laughter and not bcos of the show.
blah.
alright, i like the night breeze. heh. cooling!
i feel " light " today, and its definitely a wonderful feeling. ((:
and SHIT!! i lost my bro's ez-link card.
and i really hope evan can find it tml.
BLAH!
sometimes i do hope my mind wun think so much ..
but i care, this cant be help.
and i dunno if its a good / bad thing.
its always difficult to understand . ohwells.
and im sorry to say,
i dunno why either.
i need security and assurances.
and i need those words, true words.
and i seriously hope wadeva im thinking/feeling wasn't true.
sighs.
but i believe time gonna heal everything. ((:
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:20 PM :)
06 June, 2007
sians sians sians.
im rotting at home.
i need discipline to do works.
blah.
and i dunno why all the thoughts will come to me yesterday after everything.
is it a form of insecurity? worry ? or wadeva?
hrmmm ...
i tried to push it al aside, but it can only retain awhile.
secure me ; take all the uncertainity away.
filled the emptiness, insecurity up with love.
all i want to hear is just those words, those sentences.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:44 PM :)
05 June, 2007
headed home after remedials, after lunch. ((:
aren't i guai?
can't believe its me ehh?
okay. perhaps i sense the " weirdness " too.
but sorry, i dunno why either.
blah.
and i can't believe if its because of that.
my gosh.
dun seemed to know anything ehh.
fine. wadeva. dun wanna give it a damn anymore.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! <3<3<3
| till death do us apart<3 | 6:53 AM :)
04 June, 2007
alright, im back from vivo with calista for quite some time already.
pleasant day. ((:
finally took some photos with her. and its like FINALLY. ((:
gosh, i think she looks CUTE in this pic! hahahahah. blah!
shades on her head. i think its nice!
an aunty helped to take this. its like so " zoom out ". haha!
spotted among the KIDS. gosh, u mixed well with them. =X
i dun haf the mood to do a maths now.
blah. and need to hand in tml.
im like so BUSY can?
HAHAHAHA.
busy doing crap stuffs, but i do enjoy it, serious.
IM YEARNING FOR THE HP ACCESSORY BIG TIME!
YES, IT GONNA BE MINE, AND HOPEFULLY SOON!
KEEP THINKING ABOUT IT! RAH!
and ohya ppl, i suppose its getting better. ((:
if you know wad i mean. heh.
imu. (((:
| till death do us apart<3 | 12:35 PM :)
yes, im aware.
im aware that i've fallen short,
of Your glory, of Your love.
yes, im not worthy.
not worthy of everything that You've done.
Daddy, i've disappoint you times and times again.
i disobeyed you repeatedly.
yet Your love is never failing, never has been lesser.
thanks for Your faithfulness,
thanks for Your undying love.
i can't thank You enough, no i can't.
Jesus, You're the lover of my soul.
and yes Jesus, i love You too.
so take me to the secret place
where i can only see Your face
and nothing else will ever feel this way.
i stand here in this place
see the glory on Your face
taken by the wonder of Your name
desperate for Your touch
never needed it so much
all i want is You.
and because in You i found something that can't be found.
faith. LOVE. hope
((:
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:06 AM :)
its so unusual that you people will see me here, blogging at this time.
ohwells, i would still be in my lalaland BY RIGHT.
supposed to have tution, and huishi is alr at my house.
no news from the teacher, and he is late for almost an hour!
argh. damnit.
flashback .. yesterday ..
alright, went IMM with mummy in the noon.
FINALLY a change of phone after so long. but wells, not really the one that i prefer,
but no choice.
gonna haf a hard time getting used to that phone.
worst, ALL MY SWEET MESSAGES, MMS, blah blah ALL GONE.
=((((
saddens. I MISS THEM.
all the memories, the details of happening blah blah.
its not with me 24/7 anymore.
sighs.
was kinda at home all day in the afternoon.
but i wasn't alone. (:
high, sweet moments.
and only you get what i mean. *winkwink*
HAHA!
opps. it meant to be a secret perhaps. ((((:
wahahaha!
<3<3<3
phone rang. a call to ask me accompany kelly go eat dinner.
met roughly at 10pm plus? hrmm ..
xiaobai and peihwa were there too.
jus chatting, crapping and blah blah.
gosh, i've a deal with kelly too. and PEIHWA is the VICTIM!
opps opps. sorry kuku, but at least yours not tt thin thin thread of hope larhs.
HAHAHAHAH. =X
im like zi-highing throughout. hah.
and im not drunk okay? how to be drunk when i didnt even drink larhs?
and ohya,
KELLY BOK, HOW DARE YOU "STRIP" ME AT MAC?!?!?!
poor kuku and xiaobai saw something that they SHOULDN'T see.
and u actually wanna do it for the SECOND time?
gosh, u good! bleahs~
walked home with kelly and peihwa.
high high high ... by myself. hahahaha.
nth much ..
wondering if kuku got scare by me not..
the abnormal yet normal self. hahahahhaha!
thanks to both who walked home with me!!! ((:
i've fun, really. ((:
and we got our own freedom of speech ELSEWHERE ..
shhh .. HAHA! (((((((:
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:03 AM :)
01 June, 2007
IM SO SUPER DUPER FREAKING BORED!
lalas.
nothing much today. disappointment.
forget it, say no more.
SIANS.
and i slept alot today.
and yes, i admit im like so RESTLESS.
rrraahhhhh..
wanna do homework, but like no mood.
humph.
feel like going out now.
heh. but where, what, who.
blah.
wadeva.
lalalas.
and i miss the smiles, the laughers.
all seemed so far away.
is it starting to fade alr?
please do tell me if it is.
| till death do us apart<3 | 1:23 PM :)
a love letter from my Daddy.
My Child
You may not know me, but I know everything about you. Psalm 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up. Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways. Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image. Genesis 1:27
In me you live and move and have your being. Acts 17:28
For you are my offspring. Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived. Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation. Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live. Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother's womb. Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born. Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me. John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love. 1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. 1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child and I am your Father. 1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father. Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. James 1:17
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love. Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore. Psalms 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing. Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you. Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession. Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul. Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things. Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me. Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires. Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine. Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager. 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you. Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart. Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes. Revelation 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth. Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus. John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being. Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you. Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins. 2 Corinthians 5:18-19
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. 2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you. 1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love. Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me. 1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again. Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen. Luke 15:7
I have always been Father, and will always be Father. Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is…Will you be my child? John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you. Luke 15:11-32
Love, Your Dad.
Almighty God
its a link : http://www.fathersloveletter.com/flltextenglish.html
gid gave it to me some time ago.
i think it's nice. ((:
| till death do us apart<3 | 12:20 AM :)
