22 March, 2007
just as i expected.
another fucked up day.
talk and talk, ask and ask. what the hell larh. can't you see that im super pissed off with all these. what's the point. i dun understand. i dun get it why when everything is over alr, and you still wanna rake up and ask and ask. times and times again, i said IM OKAY OKAY OKAY, yet that dun seemed to get into your head. wah kao. say the truth, no one wanna listen. den u tell me wad u wan me to do. seriously, i DISLIKE the way you're doing things. if you dunno how to help, u dunno how to handle, for goodness sake, leave it aside, dun care. im not anyone related to you, u can choose not to care, rather den having all these shit now. i dun need unecessary ppl to interfere into my life. i dun like the feeling of under-control. its my life, mind you. if wadeva ways that i've changed and for my attitude, i dun wanna it to be this bad either. but you all are driving me up to the wall, can't blame me for this bad attitude. i rather you all dun care den giving me all these stupid idiotic crapps now. if you're really trying to help, im sad to say, to me, you helped in the wrong way. instead of feeling that you guys care, i feel so irritated, pissed off. stop all these, can you? wanna help, den please LEAVE ME ALONE. no point keep asking me, ITS NO POINT! say wadeva you want, do wadeva you wanna do, let me tell you, i dun give it a damn anymore.
after so much so much that haf happened... sucky result, hell week, dance .. lalala.. i thought i could be a little more happy after certain decision, but yet, now come this CRAPP. and i mean CRAP. give me a break larh. its my life, my choice, my everything, not yours anyway.
dance today wasnt good either. try on the costume blah blah. nth much to say. practice resume, ppl getting pissed off. shit lar. ppl cried, ppl angry .. all sort of things happen. wad's all these? sighs.
karen, yiqi and bao hui cried? relax girlies. dun cry. everything will be okay after some time. i noe time is running out. but we gotta control our emotions alright? in dance, mood and emotions is impt ehh. jiayous girlies.
feeling so much so much better when with you. jus so different from all the happenings in the afternoon. how i wish i can jus stay at tt moment, nothing but peace and happiness. thanks. great, nice, sweet time spent. i wish time can just pass slower. i miss the stars.
reached home. everything's the same again. had a good "talk" with dad. wadeva lar. believe it or not. i got nothing to say, also dun wish to say. up to you. dun wanna be bothered.
calista, stay strong alright? i dunno what's wrong with him in causing so much unhappiness in both our lives at this period. but you gotta be strong, and i noe you'll be. jiayous alright? crazyFOUR, szeting, and alot more still dere for you. smile girlie!
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please don't be affected by his/her words alright?
you do noe that its different,
and i tell/show u alr..
in fact,
everything is different with you. (:
irreplaceable, be sure.
love.<3
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:55 PM :)
