25 February, 2007
another day had passed ..
conclusion of today??
hrmm ...
alright, had a sudden lunch with family today. i noe of it only today, when gng to leave. lalala. late for cell.
everything was pretty okay.
after service, didnt stay for dinner. went off to orchard, chingay. lolls. didnt managed to find kenta. went round and round with them, ended up knowing kenta left. argh .. but well, i found something fun.
ppl dancing like crazy. WILD!! HOT!!COOL! its really cool man. standing there, with the musis, wow.. those ppl are jus going crazy and wild. the scene is so COOL. i mean really COOOOL. how i wish they continue gng crazy lar, so that i can watch more. heh. i wonder, if one day i become tt wild n crazy, how would tt be.. haha. i will kena counselling ltr. lolls.
chingay indeed got alot of entertainments.
nth much for today, other than that. walked walked, went 7-11 and cabbed home.
ohya, i reached home only to see uncles, aunties at my house playin majong again. lolls.
well, im not interested anyway, so yep, none of my business.
haha.
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Life no longer ends here with you in my heart.
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:14 PM :)
24 February, 2007
alright. finally friday once again.
dunno wad's wrong la, seemed like alot of homework and stuff to do.
lalala. tired lah! lolls.
first time attending chem tutorial. haha. find it quite fun leh .. went to eat lunch with baby and go IMM for just a little while. cabbed home and off out of house agn.
lalala. fine day .. brown contact lens. i wanna the dunno wad kind of purple de, and i admit blue one is nice! heh. the river again .. i just love it there. never will be sick and tired of going there. (: gonna be my another home soon. number 5!
took bus home. tired tired. lala.]
reached home, came to me some idiotic news. what the heck is tt.
repeat = nth to be touched, to be used, to be changed, whatever w/o my permission.
somemore is those kiddos.
better still, stay away from here.
better nth is to be wrong,
stop testing my patience.
sighs.
so long since i talked so much online. not bad ahh. encountered some qns. lolls. not surprise. hrmm, dunno wad else to say le lar.
im noe im mentally tired ..
church tml .. homework to be done .. common tests coming ..
i need strength, wisdom, everything that is necessary.
i jus love the lyrics of the song.
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every breath of mine, i'll hold you by my side.
| till death do us apart<3 | 6:05 PM :)
19 February, 2007
alright ..
i think im crazy.
super awake now.
packing my room in the middle of the night.
heh.
recalling .. once upon a time ..
so much so much of the FIRST TIME.
LOL.
i got 20,
you got 15.
wahaha. i won!
memories kept close to me. (:
my best of the best.
1517 <3
jet'aime.
loves.misses.
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:13 PM :)
HOHO, CHINESE NEW YEAR IS HERE.
ang baos, ang baos, come come come.
heehee. (:
alright,
start from 2 days ago..
friday.
school celebration. hrmm, time passed quite fast ah. my first and the last time to dance MR.Q. but well, i thought i never had a chance, but stil i did. contented. (:
school was dismissed pretty late. delay delay abit, went home and prepared to go out.
went town with dearie. planning to shop for new year clothes. but .. ehh .. i get nothing. haha. =X went with her to take her retainer first den went to eat lunch. yum yummy. heh. after that went walkin around at esprit and then heeren.
alright, clarke quay for dinner. whee~
nice food, nice atmosphere, everything nice lah!
someone very cham, gotta walk a long long way to get money. =X i happily sit there. hrmm, but hor, not tt i really so comfortable sitting there talking on phone so shuang hor. dun think tt way ok? i got think think and worry where r u, scarly .. u noe, u noe wad i mean ehh. mind not at ease de hor, get this clear. hah.
okay, now come the ending, yet nice part. sat at the stair near the river bank there talk talk. i think its nice lor. i jus enjoyed that everytime, regardless at the river or here or playground lala etc. heh. (: with the atmosphere, weather, person, songs, talking .. COOL LAR!
nice, cool day; home sweet home.
saturday.
church service in the morning. and yea, i was sweating alot during P&W, dunno how come. haha. after that, went west mall to eat sweensen before heading home. yummy!!
went to grandma's house in the evening to haf reunion dinner. nth special, every year the same ah. only untill the part where they started doing the religon thingy .. lala. was in sucha awkward situation, ppl looking and staring, saying n teasing, yet i still dun want. luckily my God is with me, i managed to escape from it.
alright, partially is because going with bro, song, jensen and kenta to watch movie at cine. so yep, i gotta go home change and take things first, so i went off w/o doing all that. =X uncle keep saying, teasing .. lala. wadeva.
alright, went with the guys and dearie out to watch. first time mid night show. heh. eyes were super irritated. but well, managed to last throughout the whole show. ohya, after buyin the tickets, we got somethin interesting. haha! a confrontation. well, the security is indeed " WONDERFUL" man. haha. went to eat long john and in to the threatre.
show ended. her dad fetched her up. the 5 of us walked ard. hah. duno wad mid night bus to take. lala. me and bro cabbed home. and the rest i suppose hang around untill 6am plus take the very first train home bah. lolls.
tiring, yet a new experience. heh. (:
sunday.
today was a sian day ah. went grandma house again in the morning to eat. eat eat, den sit there. ston ston, watch tv, almost fall asleep. cannot tahan lah. nth to do. went home the earliest alone, and sleep. heh. better den sitting there doing nth ah.
ohya, and with all the homework not done. i duno how to survive. haha.
tml dunno if i can dun go malaysia. wanna go ps.daniel house with cell. somemore go malaysia is go " bai bai " my grandpa. u noe i wont do it even if i go. and other den tt stil going malacca to visit my grandma's sis. duh .. i dunno who is her ah. and i can be very sure, chop chop very sian for the whole day de ahh. give mi a break, give me a way.
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:40 PM :)
14 February, 2007
WAD THE #&@%!$
everything is falling down?
things after things,
or rather, all come at the same time.
it keep falling and falling,
non stop, uncontrollably.
for the whole day n night,
awake in my mind, mentally.
cant get to slp,
dun wanna sleep too.
tears from above?
different place, different time ..
went to your river,
wad a nice scenery.
on the way,
thoughts keep flashing in my mind.
make me smile, make me cry.
a nice place to think,
a nice place to hang around,
im really loving that place,
thanks for letting me " know " of such place.
word after word,
thought after thought,
question after question,
answer after answer.
similarly of the same thing,
it dropped and tumbled down ..
not a few, but it jus keep running downstream.
so much of uncertainity,
so much of fear,
right infront of me,
broke down.
pierced me. shattered.
jus waiting for tt one sentence,
my bad, for taking so long, delaying.
thousands of sorries.
wish i can just take tt all way,
all of tt, that is inside.
felt so helpless, seemed like there is nth i can do.
fortunately,
dere is someone who is able to just make you smile n okay.
screwed up my chinese.
wad the hell is my mind doing lar.
supposed to write number, yet i go write the word,
and the worst thing is I READ THE INSTRUCTION.
wadeva, over le, no point thinking or caring.
for these 2 days, i dunno i go school for wad.
didnt get a single thing into my head.
wasting my time there.
i cant make myself high,
i cant put on a smile, i tried,
but failed.
i dunno why,
wad's the real reason for pulling me all the way down.
looking straight into your eyes,
thousands of words come thru into my mind.
seemed haf so much so much to say,
yet nothing.
jus of one simple sentence,
up and gone.
started breaking down,
tears fell once again .
so many tests for this week.
why come at this wrong time?
how well wil i do?
God knows.
how i wish to jus walk away,
to jus leave,
here and anything.
how i wish it jus drop and jus hit.
how i wish it jus come and jus hit
a deep long sleep is what i want.
that one sentence keep appearing in my mind.
for the moment,
i just dun wish to talk,
yet wanted the presence to be around.
practiced MR.Q today.
tryin hard to concentrate,
trying hard to do it well.
i just cant give it all.
friday performing,
how will i do.
IF ONLY .____]
pierced me ; nth make sense anymore?
seemed like there is so much to say.
but i jus seemed to be unable to get it all out.
lost for words, dunno how to put it.
ohya, this is for u KUM YONG.
we FINALLY did TITRATION practical.
LOL! quite fun leh..
played with it many times. =X
duno wad else to say.
shall end here.
| till death do us apart<3 | 11:30 AM :)
12 February, 2007
missed an important call last night.
or rather,
every single call/msg of yours is important.
sighs. lala.
i rather miss my slp, den to miss the call.
alright, im being guai whole day.
staying at home.
slack? do hw? wadeva.
haha.
dunno lar.
realised nowadays i got a craving for ice-creams. =X
spent dunno how long looking thru the posts in the archive.
haha. nice larrs.
well, certain posts jus touched me,
tears almost fall.
i realised ..
nth much.
jus a post for kick.
hah.
| till death do us apart<3 | 6:48 AM :)
11 February, 2007
went to school for the class deco, for the short 2 hours.
didnt managed to do much though.
headed to church, after waiting for cab for about 40mins ++. =.=
reminded me of psalm 23:4
yea, though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
i will fear no evil;
for You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
service not bad, but the stupid headache had been distracting me alot, pnw + sermon.
sighs. lalala.
Lord, humbly i bow before You.
You see the cry of my heart.
God, show me the way.
teach me what to do,
guide me through.
i need You
,yes Lord, You know that.
im sorry for the times when i wanna let go.
im sorry for the times when i broke Your heart.
God, teach me how to depend on You.
went back to your river.
sorry for everything that had been caused.
mood deepen again.
tears couldnt stop falling.
seeing you liddat breaks my heart,
but i know im the cause of it. my bad.
your poor heart ached again,
bcos of my tears.
millions of sorries.
still, thanks for the promise,
and everything tt u've done and said. <3
wad matter most is whether you will okay afterall.
no worries. everything is fine. (:
my best of the best.
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:46 PM :)
10 February, 2007
how should i describe today?
i dunno.
sian? bad? confused?
alright. time passed quite fast today during school. not bad ah. if everyday would be liddat how cool can that be? not feeling really sleepy in class. jus wasnt feeling very well, neither very good.
nth much. O level result released. not bad ah fuhua. hrmm, wonder how will it be like next year when we come back to take. haha!
pissed and made someone super pek chek. sorry.
that 2 sentences .. make me feel so bad.
all i got to say is,
IT MATTERS, BOTH YOU AND YOUR WORDS
NOT JUST SOMETHING, BUT ALOT.
numerous times of reminders yet i can forget.
and with my that sentence,
make you super bu shuang.
sorry.
precious, important one.
called gid. well, he can certainly changed my mind so easily. alright, with that "tag", i gonna think before i decided to come to a conclusion next time. will buck up, get back and do wad is supposed to be done. thanks. (:
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:45 PM :)
08 February, 2007
WHATEVER.
have been using this word.. recently.
nice to use, but didnt help much though. =X
what is all that i wanna say?
i cant put all into words.
sighs.
how come i suddenly feel so ...
i dunno.
the longer i stay,
the more i find things not so simple.
seemed to have a hidden meaning.
i do get tired of pondering what's all that supposed to mean.
i even thought of leaving there,
for whatever reason.
it dun feel the same anymore.
i get what it means to be " scary "
shoot wadeva u wanna say,
right here, directly,
whoever it is that wanna speaks.
what is it tt i want right now at this moment?
what is it tt i need?
just what the hell is all these for?
dun feel like saying much anymore ..
on the verge..
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:13 PM :)
07 February, 2007
alright, jus a pretty short post after so long.
heh.
birthday this year was a pretty good one. (:
continuously for 4 days there were cakes.
haha. gonna be fat lar.
thanks for all those who celebrated for me,
all the presents, all the wishes.
its really different.
i appreciate it!
hrmm,
today is evan dearie's and sze ting dardar's birthday!!
HAPPY SWEET 16TH BIRTHDAY, GIRLIES!
stay happy always and excel in badminton!
all the best! (: loveyou guys!
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:11 PM :)
