30 December, 2006
alright. had dance camp yesterday and today. yawns, im dead beat.
didnt sleep for the entire night, watchin the people play games. lolls.
was just sitting there, browsing through my past messages in my handphone and sending songs to junjie.
those messages jus reminded mi of the past, happy or sad. lolls.
early in the morning, the whole big gang went to the hall. played badminton with jingwei. i believe if i jus continue sitting there ah, i wil fall asleep in the hall! haha. went to bath. duh.. the water is SUPER DUPER cold la! cannot tahan. haha. lalala.
still got 1 more hour before breakfast time. lay down on the floor in the music room, watching the girls play uno. jingwei tt few helped us to buy ice milo back. thanks! wanted to take a short short nap, but couldnt. haha!
finally after breakfast, they all went up to asthetic room and i went home. changed, packed my things and off i go to meet mich and gid for meeting. lasted for about 3 hours plus? i was late in meetin evan. sorry ah.
watched death note 2. was so tired, at some point of time in the cinema almost wanna fall asleep. =X but well, the show is nice! walked walked, shop shop around marina. and went to haf dinner at mac. the place we wanna go to had dinner is so packed with ppl!! lalala.
after that, went to singapore river. which is evan's river. lolls. sit down there, eating ice cream. the atmosphere very good. windy day, seemed very peaceful. talked talked for a while. and 2 guys come over to ask us help buy the " light band ". haha. purple rocks! due to time constraint, left the river at 9pm. we only stayed there for about half an hour. aww .. i wanna stay there longer!! its cool!
*jiayous. u do ur best, God will do the rest. keeping u in prayer. (:
took bus back to je interchange. sleep all the way on the bus. energy was all drained le. literally dozed off for the whole journey. did ur shoulder suffer? =X came to my house to get her things and home sweet home.
nth much today. a sweet and simple day. another day had passed. sch is going to reopen soon. lalala.
| till death do us apart<3 | 4:54 PM :)
28 December, 2006
can't predict wad's awaiting right ahead.
i can't see wad the future holds.
i dunno wad's gonna happen in the very next min.
i dunno when i'll just be gone.
but right now, im thankful with all that i haf.
God had just placed too many wonderful people, wonderful things around me. what more can i say, what more can i do? i treasure, i love.
though im scared, i wondered, but im not shaken.
i know very well what/who matters most to me,
i know very well what/who i needed most.
its not just for a moment, but for long term, permanent.
things around might change, wadeva, i dun care.
im loving, treasuring and cherishing everything now.
just too good, too wonderful to be true.
24/7 available.
i'll do all i can to protect, no matter wad it takes.
my cell, my family, my friends, all who i know and all my belongings, are precious. i love them!
Daddy, i sincerely truely just thank You for all these people, all these things.
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a strong passion in dance overflowed me.
i just wanna use dance to express everything.
when im sad and troubled, i wanna dance.
when im happy and crazy, i wanna dance.
its only when dancing,
every unexplained feelings, or wadeva can be let out.
its only when dancing,
everything seemed to be still,
and i can just simply dance to my heart's content, to my emotions, regardless of wad it is.
will i ever haf the chance to just excel in this passion of mine?
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:31 PM :)
25 December, 2006
all this while i thought christmas was nothing. but ytd at christmas bash, it changed my view on christmas.
2000++ years ago, the day when Jesus was born ..
everything went on pretty smoothly during yesterday's christmas bash. yep, good job, everybody! (:
alot of people came yesterday. hopefully all had fun!
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never really received a christmas present before.
but something really touched mi today, to the bottom of my heart.
i was stunned, shocked, in disbelief.
but its all for me.
man, i was lost for words, i dunno how to react.
thanks dearie for everything.<3 size="4">MY DEARIE IS ALWAYS THE BEST, NEVER FAIL TO MAKE ME SMILE AND I LOVE HER! MUACKS!
thanks for such a wonderful, pretty, awesome guitar.
i really love it!
thanks for spenting hours on that card w/o slp,
its really sweet and i appreciate it!
tears welled up in my eyes when im reading,
making my vision blur and i cant even see the words.
so touched la! hahah! gotta blink blink 2 times b4 the tears went off.
every single words, every single thing is PRECIOUS.
wadeva it is, i want you to know that,
beyond words can describe,
how i happy im,
how touched i was,
how much i appreciate and love all that!
its all just so precious to me!
a wonderful christmas surprise, a marvellous christmas present.
love you so much, dearie!! hee hee.
also,
big thanks to gideon, alvin, karen, tiffany, dianyong for the cards!!
big thanks to yiqi for the apple name strap, to siyun for the apple little purse.
so sweet of u guys!
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Daddy, i thank You for all these wonderful people, all these wonderful things.
i love You, Daddy.
| till death do us apart<3 | 8:50 AM :)
22 December, 2006
im back from the camp.
one simple word : AWESOME!
duh .. im real tired now. yawns. came back from camp today, and went out again to meet with calista, karen and dian yong to get retro stuffs! so last min, yea i know. i need it tml and i jus bought it today. =X tt time after camp was alr dead beat, wanted so much to slp right after that. haha! but cant ah. spent a long time getting all the things. im quite frustrated too at first, partially veri tired and didnt found one really satisfied de. lolls. anyway, everyone got their own individual ones and yep, christmas bash, here we come!
alright, now for the camp. everything was cool and high! first day, everyone not in the mood yet. couldnt get high, all so diam ah. second day during one of the meals, people started to get high, by banging of the table. haha! it was fun! seemed like recapping sec3 camp. lolls.
and come the third day. the CRAZIEST day. had games at west coast. man, it was HOT! had lotsa fun, screaming and cheering. everyone was enthu! coolness! got so smelly and dirty too. haha! ISAAC ROCKS!
praise party was COOL COOL COOL! im loving it!!! everyone was so so so high can. praise God with all our might, worship God with all our hearts! and alot experienced God! me too! God is so so so close, so so so real to me larh! never feel Him so strong before, in His presence, tears dropped. (: i called, and You answered. I know You love me, i know You're always there. thanks Jesus for Your assurance. I LOVE YOU, DADDY!
last day, which is today, had morning service. quite tired though, but managed to get through. at the end of service, everyone getting high again. jumping around in the house of God! YEAH YEAH! played and screamed till so crazily, im having fun! even after service, standing ard and be crazy with the girls. " dancing " and " clubbing " ahh. haha! liangzhi saw, came over and said to me, " bring this back to sat service ". haha. yea, i will, that's for sure! (:
YOUTHIMPACTCAMP2006ROCKS!
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God i thank You for all You've done,
for all You've provided.
i thank You for being so close and real to me.
God i just want to know You even more and deeper.
i want more of You and less of myself.
i wanna be in Your presence every day.
fire burning strong,
Lord i prayed that this fire will always be burning for You.
let this fire, this passion even flow out to all the others.
i wanna praise and worship You like i never done b4.
amen.
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please take away the pain, O Lord.
i need it be to painless at least for saturday.
God, i wanna dance wholeheartedly,
and not get distracted by this.
God, i wanna do a good job on sat,
and its all for You, Lord.
Daddy, its hurting,
really hurting so much so much,
even jus a slight touch.
let Your healing hands be upon me, Lord.
| till death do us apart<3 | 2:26 PM :)
19 December, 2006
blog gonna be dead for another few days,
because im going Y.I camp in jus half an hour time!
WHEE~
im excited. im expecting big things, great things dere!
it gonna be so AWESOME i noe.
haha!
and nevertheless, this sat is CHRISTMAS BASH.
people, please try to make it alright?
im looking forward to seeing u guys dere! (:
take care guys!
God, please provide a way out for me this once more.
im just lifting everything up into Your loving hands.
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:30 AM :)
13 December, 2006
alright. a kind soul came my house this morning to see me and even bought mi porridge. gues who is it? of cos none other den my dearie, evan lar! haha. so nice, so sweet of her rite? <3 LOL! thanks. ohya, also brought the dunno wad thing for ulcer for me. it helps alot i muz say. (:
fever subsided this morning when i woke up. headache still a little, nothing much. went lot 1 with karen in the afternoon to get the white shirt. yep, managed to get it, and also get the cap for Mr.Q. headache started coming strong again, and giddy too. aw .. after tt went to church for dance. saw andrew and jean at west mall interchange.
was slightly late 15 mins for dance. yep, dance sort of choreograph finish le. continue to perfect the steps. half way suddenly feel like vomitting. dun even noe why. everyone rested for a while. told karen veri " xin ku ", and suddenly tears jus drop. lalala. cannot take it la. karen and yifang told rosline. the dancers prayed for me. thanks guys!
something shocked and brought mi down for a moment. it changed and hit the dot again! aw .. but this time i decided to give it a miss. supposed to be a sweet thing, and not disappointment or anything. so yep.
went home at 6.30pm. didnt stay for the rehearsal 2 times le, left halfway. im sorry and i do feel bad. but next fri i'll sure be dere throughout, the last rehearsal before the actual one.
home sweet home. realised the fever come back again. grr. laid on my bed, doing nth. and the thought of mi haven even touched my hw keep coming to my mind. haha. lalala. mum jus came back from overseas and only to see mi on my bed, sick. she was so shocked and asked why my face so red. LOL. thought i got sun burn in thailand. haha!
nothing much alr. tml stil got sch dance. shall see how den.
take lotsa care ppl. (:
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:06 PM :)
12 December, 2006
wanna sleep but can't sleep.
wad m i supposed to do?
so here im bloggin .
went to sch for dance today in the morning. chinese dance with the guys first, after that mr Q. somewhere in the middle of the dance, suddenly got slight headache, and feeling a little warm. but didnt care much. went to mac for lunch, but i didnt eat. only drink green tea. received mich's msg, she was sick - fever + headache. i was thinking like so coincidental. after that i was feeling extremely cold. ask yq acc mi to go out walk, cos the rest are all eating. went to 7-11 to buy the dunno crab-cheese pizza thingy and eat. wait for the rest to finish eating and went back to sch.
half the time i was resting on the floor/mattress. feeling really really warm, and the headache is killing me. didnt haf the strength to do anything. even if walking, also need " extra " strength. laid on the floor. karen, yiqi, bao hui they all keep saying my cheeks very red, like put blusher liddat. some even say this time really looks like apple liao . er ..
look into the mirror when tying my untidy hair, yes, i admit it is RED. i was shocked. dunno how come liddat. grr .. on the surface is cold, inside of me is burning hot.
due to the rain, went to church for dance veri late. only go dere for half an hour. keep gotta sit down, no strength to stand for long. 7pm, went home. luckily i still managed to reach home safely. on the way walking back, like cant even stand properly. duh .. home sweet home.
not a single soul is at home. rested for a while on the bed but could not get to sleep. gotta endure the coldness + hotness, the headache, the discomfort. my stomach is grumbling, but i dun seemed to haf the appetite to eat.
this is all for the whole day :
1 packet of milo, 1 waffle, 1 green tea, 1 crab-cheese " pizza ", 1 oreo ice blended.
continue like this sure can lose weight ah. LOL. wadeva wadeva .
hopefully still able to make it for tml's church dance, gotta go find collar long sleeve white shirt too.
i dun ask for more, dun ask for it to regain or anything. but all i want is then to be available just for all that. im willing to exchange just for it, yes i do. please just even fulfil this request of mine.
God, i prayed .....
| till death do us apart<3 | 3:02 PM :)
08 December, 2006
IM BACK FROM MISSION TRIP!!
yea, it was a pretty cool experience. (:
time passed so slow, yet so fast.
get to experience God and how He can simply work through us. salvation and healings. i see His works, His miracles.
HE IS JUST AWESOME BEYOND WORDS CAN DESCRIBE. I LOVE HIM! (:
its first time went overseas w/o parents. not bad ah. cool teammates. high and high, joke and joke, lame and lame!! its a joy to be in the same team with u guys! really. gideon, derek, weekiat, ken, michelle, sabrina, joey, dek kai, anthony, karen and me!
though tired, but we are not down. God, its You who give us strength. (:
faith grown. learnt to really rely on God, no matter wad happen. experience Him, in the way that He is just so real so real. the only true living God.
next year mission trip, i wont wanna miss. in fact, im going each and every year!! yes, im. gonna learn thai so go dere will be much more easier! haha.
bought a few things back. im sorry didnt buy for many of u guys. cos seriously i dunno wad to buy. all the things i had a hard hard time thinking and deciding.
bought for family, evan, sze ting and calista. a packet of "cookies" shared by mich, karen and me for cell.
nevertheless, i miss my frenz and family here. dun deny, i missed my friends more den family. haha. =X yes yes yes, i do miss ppl here! no doubt abt that!
reached singapore. its really shocking to see so many Y.I people. here. so cool larh! haha. the best thing is, wei qiang, xavier, tiffany, evan, cal and sze ting came!!!!! thanks big time. so nice of u guys. =D so cool right? alight from the plane can see them. haha.
next major event, Y.I camp. im looking forward to it big time tooo! it gonna be veri veri fun i believe!!! after that is christmas bash. really really hope all those we invited would be able to come!
nothing much le. i shall see again if i wanna blog down the whole events during the trip, each particular day. haha.
the message really touched mi deep inside my heart. (: every pic, every word, its precious! (: thanks big time, dearie! <3
| till death do us apart<3 | 5:24 PM :)
